It's PSLE Marking Week. I'm not involved in this hence, here i am.. staying at home. Zzz.. It's so boring.. I wish i could go to school and teach. At the same time, i would be paid too. Staying at home for this whole week means i'm not paid a single cent. Hais..
$325 just fly away like this..

Taiwan trip is just 2 mths away and i'm trying very hard to save every cent which i can.. I tried to skip lunch after work.. But sometimes, couldn't help it cos the gastric problem will come after me.. I would just drink a cup of milo to keep my gastric warm. I haven't been spending for very long. I refrain myself frm doing online shopping. Even have to prevent myself frm stepping to town so that i can refrain myself from buying things too.

Worst thing is.. i'll be jobless after 16 November cos it's school hoilday until next year. Means i'm still left with 1 month to earn.. and it's JUST PEANUTS.. =(

Sigh~ Sometimes, i laugh at myself.. Why do i have to do all these to myself just becos of a 7 day trip. Life would be so much easier if i'm not going to Taiwan. Aiyo......

The more i think.. the more i regret..
But too late la.. air tix bought, hotel room booked..
I'm now squeezing myself dry.. dry.. and even more dry..

I'm suppose to be looking forward to the trip. I'm sure anyone who's going oversea will be looking forward to it..

But i'm starting not to..
Cos i know things will get worst when i come back from holiday. I won't have a single cent in my bank cos all my money would be spent away over there.. =(

Thinking abt daily expenses and bills i have to settle when i come back.. I feel like crying.. Where to find money??!!

So... only go overseas when u have extra cash...!!!

Why am i not born with a silver spoon.. ( i'm not even expecting a gold spoon lor..)

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It's downslope for my career life.

I feel so lost! thinking.. what if MOE don't accept my application for teaching post AGAIN?
Am i going to stay on with relief teaching??
It's not good money doing long term relief. Doesn't benefit me much. Just feel like i'm wasting my time.

My dad's getting anxious and pissed. Waiting for his daughter to take care of him but the day doesn't seem near at all.

I'm so stressed..

I have a feeling that Dad isn't happy with me going Taiwan. He knows i've got no money and i can't afford to give him much either YET.. i'm going overseas..

Gosh! What have i done.. What a WRONG decision..
I must be crazy to agree to go overseas with my friends..
They're either rich or working full time with steady income..

WHAT AM I?!!

WHAT AM I!!??

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I.AM.POOR

I.AM.DUMB
candy scribbled at 10/15/2007 04:39:00 PM

Candy Xu
22.08.1986