All By Myself

2008-07-10T16:14:00.002+08:00

countdown

13 more days to NIE.

excited & nervous at the same time.

i'm now seriously thinking of staying in hall. but before i decide, i will check out more info during the day of my registration in NIE first. cos according to the letter, i have to pay rent for 1 whole semester, but i dun wish to stay in hall during my holidays. so what i'm concern with is.. i'll be paying even thou i'm not staying for 2 months.

can i smuggle my dog into hall? cos i noe i'll miss her very much. =(

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i just did an online quiz which seems pretty true.

Your view on yourself:Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

try it!

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

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sigh~
hasn't been too good with my r/s..

dun wanna comment much here.

just feel very very troubled.

2008-06-16T17:18:00.002+08:00

=(

i fail my final theory test..

nth more to say.

i'll book the retest again.
earliest in august.
in the mean time, i will not let it hinder my start of driving lesson in july/aug.

quite sad.

2008-06-15T14:39:00.010+08:00

Buzz Week

Tuesday~
mentioned that i went out with cj & van for shopping.

Wednesday~
went out with hong to celebrate our monthiverasary @ California Pizza.
hee, was too hungry to take photos. totally forgot abt it.
he said he was happy to rcv the prezzies frm me.
and.. i'm glad tat he's happy. =)

Thursday~
went out with ling for lunch.
had Waraku @ Marina Sq.
spent quite a few hours on our lunch.. just chilling out and eating and chit-chatting.

our set lunches.. & chawan mushi

and US!

Friday~

went to rebond my hair @ clementi.

den met cj, van, ning & yuling for dinner @ taka.

Saturday~

morning had my bond signing session over @ moe.

after tat brought hong, mum & aunt for brunch @ IMM.

met up with jj cos i wanna get my lappy.

actually had a few brands & models on mind.. like asus, toshiba, compaq & dell.

most of the cost are more or less the same and within my budget.

but duno why also..

i ended up buying...
.

it's now my new baby.. haha.

macbaby will get an accompany when iphone comes out.

satisfied.. satisfied...

TODAY~ is father's day.

daddy.. happy father's day!!!!

i hope dad will be happy & healthy.

2008-06-11T00:27:00.007+08:00

Night Safari

went last Sat after hong came back from reservist.
it was quite an experience.
and indeed, the admission fee is very costly.. in fact, it's the most expensive tourists' attractive in singapore. really.. according to The Straits Times. $32 including the tram fee.
but still we enjoyed ourselves very much.
although it's a night safari.. but photos taken doesn't include any of the animals in there cos the place is simply toooooo dark and we're not allow to use flash.
so, i end up giving up taking any photos of the animals.

take our own photos even better lor.. =)
at least we won't be 'shocked' by the camera's flashes.. unlike the animals. hoho...

gosh, i think i look pregnant in this photo..

tribal performance by the entrance. very nice.. very interesting.

real torches outside the entrance..

on our way to the 'tree trails' which is BORING.. it's dark and there's nth to see..

going to the 'Creatures of the Night' show.

here's 2 loving creatures.. hehe..

the stage & an arty farty photo of the audiences

hong on the tram.. on our way to tour around the night safari.
it was quite exciting cos some of the animals are just standing right beside you.. not fenced up.
pretty safari-like.
saw alot of beautiful animals. worth it.

had Ben's & Jerry's after that.. Wonderful!!

playing the gong with a wooden spatulus

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TODAY

met up with 2 darlings.. cj & van..
i think the last time i saw them was yl's birthday??
let me know if i'm wrong.. hehe..

had pretty much to talk abt..
sat at mos burger @ taka for 2+hrs talking non stop.

went over to Tangs to get perfume for myself & hong.
it's suppose to be a surprise.. hopefully he doesn't see this post before i give it to him tmr.
yup.. it's a gift for our 1.5 anniversary...
*for ur info, we don't celebrate every month la.. just happen that i feel like buying him smth he needs*

went over to MAC *not mac donald's* to get my press powder.
got 10% discount all thanks to van's fren working over there.. yippie.. i love discountss..
got 6% discount off my Issey Miyaki perfume too.. all thanks to cj's tangs card rebate..

discounts rox!!

i was given a very big kahki-canvas bag as a free gift for buying my perfume.
double happiness... haha.

total damage today including meals was a freaking $250. *quite alot for a person like me lor.*

BUT!!

still had a great great day la...
i hope u girls had a great day too.

will be meeting them up again on friday.. either for dinner or some other activities..
looking forward to it.. =)

happy 18th monthiversary, baby..
i love you more than anything else.. and u know it. =)

2008-06-06T12:30:00.004+08:00

Plans

hong's coming back from reservist tonight..
but of cos not gonna meet him yet. guess he'll be so tired that he'll think of nothing except sleeeep..

Itinerary for tmr.. (my plan)
1. lunch
2. shopping
3. kungfu panda
4. night safari
5. dinner in night safari
6. home sweet home

i'm not sure if it's possible to work it out. but i'll try.
it's hong who suggest going night safari. haha.
tot that was quite cool so why not just go ahead with it.

i wonder if the admission ticket has discounted rate for civil servant.. it's $22 per entry.
quite costly huh..

haha.. was thinking if it a piece of dress that cost $22.. i'll sure go ahead without 2nd thought.

=P

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it's a boring friday.
suppose to head for st. james tonight for a drink but hong's gonna be back frm reservist so thought it won't be so nice to go ahead.
so planned to have lunch with my fren instead but there's a last minute thing which corp up.
my fren's gonna help up with one of our colleague cos his granny just pass away.

sigh~

what is the purpose of getting born into this world?
to experience life, love, fun, stress, agony, ill.

and after all these.. we die.

ha.. is that so?

it's crazy.

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just gonna spend time infront of the comp and rot..

rotting away..

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next week..

not sure if we're spending our 1.5 yrs anniversary together?
not sure if angela's gonna call me out on wed.. dbl O? Zouk?
not sure when i'm meeting ling.. (tentatively thurs)?
not sure if i'm gonna meet cj?
not sure where my family wants to eat on father's day?
not sure if aunt can be my 2nd surety for signing my teacher's bond on saturday?

2008-06-05T14:36:00.003+08:00

SMILE

mambo nite ytd with darling princess with the A, together with her very cool & cute poly frens. clubbing has always been fun with her.. her frens are great too!

can't get into Phuture. but i still love Zouk.

told angela that we shld have tat MORE before sch starts. =)

anyway, woke up early to collect TTA letter frm reena.
forced myself to wake up cos i couldn't get enough slp. reach home like 4am last nite la.

Zzz..

anyway, feel kinda nervous now, after getting the nie letter. seems to be getting nearer.
i was looking at the liquidated damage pay back.. it's 100k if i break my bond.
i 'm afraid i won't do well for my studies since i haven't been studying for awhile le.
need sometime to adjust back. cos brain rusty already.

i hope i dun regret my move.
haha..

i think i'm just thinking too much la.

was deciding whether to stay in hall anot.
contact my fren but she still can't decide.. must physco her..
hais..

tot of staying in for like a year to experience hall life.
think it'll be fun.
and i dun wanna regret cos it's gonna be the very last time i'll be studying in a campus.
i wasn't participative in my poly days and i regretted so much.
i just wanna make it up.. hence, i wanna have fun in nie.

but not sure if it's right..

i shall see how..

i wan to have a happening life.. =)

my fren always tells me this..
it's better to regret doing it than regret for not doing it.

*eh.. did i get it correctly?*

2008-06-04T13:56:00.006+08:00

Life's Good!! vs Life's Good??

i'm into the 2nd week of my sch holz. time flies.. only another 2 more weeks left. and i'll be counting down to nie. haha.

haha.. yes! u didn't hear it wrongly.. i got the good news from sch today. i've got the placement. i'll be signing the dotted line next saturday at moe's podium. yahoo!!

finally got what i want for so long.. it's just like a dream come true.. after fighting for it for so.. damn long..

frm working in sch's child care.. to ad hoc relief teacher.. to full time relief teacher.. to contract teacher.. den to nie..

it's been a looooong way.. fighting so hard for it at every phrase. sigh~ i just feel like a load off my chest.

i do hope it's a dream come true.. Not the start of a nightmare thou.

i think i should be starting sch on 23rd July. hence, i'll be in this sch for another 1 month = 4 weeks before i bid goodbye everyone.. FOREVER.. cos i don't want to come back to this school. but of cos i still love the pple here. =)

hais.. it's just the...
u know la. it's not nice to make it so clear.

but i still wanna thank some of the pple in the school for helping me out directly & indirectly. sincerely appreciate their kindness and concern.

but of cos one impt person who stood by me from the beginning.. facing all my s**ts and depressing moments and not forgetting my tantrums but always asking me not to give up.

tadah~ the credit goes to MR ONG.. who is still in his reservist.. poor darling..
told him the first thing he called me just now. =)

i wish i could give him a hug..
eh.. more like i want a hug from him la.. maybe more hugSS will be better.. =P
cos i'm really very happy. i'm sure he is too.. i can hear from his voice and tone. =)

wish me luck.. and i need LOTS of them.. for my future.

hope it's a good start.

cos here comes my high pay (not HIGH yet).
i'll be able to get lots and lots of branded stuffs.
of cos buy a car in 3 yrs time?

life!! just like sex and the city..

yep!

i went to watch it ytd.
i was WOW! by the kind of life the 4 women are having. so luxurious.
i wish i can be like them..

anyway, the show's good. not super fantastic.. but really, it's good la.
will make pple wanna watch the drama series.
i can feel the temptation..
haha..

go catch it if u haven't.

2008-06-02T13:03:00.008+08:00

Hui Hui's Birthday Chalet

went to aloha loyang on thursday to attend huihui's birthday chalet. it's more like a gathering but not all turned up cos it on a weekday. anyway, it wasn't her birthday YET on that day.
suppose to be on the 4th if i'm not wrong.

anyway, she is hong's friend. got to know her when i joined in their clique when we got together.

kim was there as well. she is hong's good friend's gf. a teacher too~ we always has lots to talk abt.. and of cos the 2 good friends on the right.. hui hui & hong.

it's only abt half the clique that turned up.

jj changed his pro cam to wide lens. how wide can it be??

jj, cy, hh, kim, ah pui( i suddenly couldn't recall his real name).. =P

myself with hh & kim.

myself with kim & my love.. anyway, i think jj's pro cam is really very pro.. the photos turned out like those taken when we go clubbing. the lighting and watever he calls them.. doesn't make us look oily right??

i dun think i need to repeat myself again.. but i think the photos are really GOOD~

our great bachelor.. CY.. haha

US!!

quarter of the clique..

i bet hong had lotsa fun.

they were playing with water like mad..

i'm glad he had fun.

he'll be away till friday.

i miss him dearly.

does he know how much i love him?

i wish friday comes fast.

may everything goes on smoothly for his reservist.

and come back safe..

2008-05-30T22:05:00.003+08:00

Great Singapore Sales - GSS!!

came back frm chalet.
haha.. more like i came back frm thailand.
we were having the water festival ytd, where pple start splashing and pouring water on each other.
the guys were playing soccer at the front porch den duno how some one started using water gun to shoot. tat's how everything started.

i didn't take part in the "festival" cos i got no extra undergarments. haha.
but i had fun watching them play.
hong was behaving like a little boy.

anyway, reached home at ard 6 am.
slept thru the morning and woke up at 5+pm?

actually at 3pm la. just tat i lai chuang for 2 hrs.
hehe..

tmr going out with hong.
very excited..
i wanna go shopping..

GSS is here!!

yay! it's here!

i'm glad i still have some cash with me. hoho.
i'm going to buy buy buy.. shop shop shop.. till i drop!

i dun care if hong's jaw drop.. cos i'll still go ahead with it.
hehe..

now.. i'll go abit emo..
cos hong's going reservist coming monday..
for 5 days..
urgh~!

2008-05-29T15:03:00.006+08:00

Decision

i've decided. i'm gonna do it in august.
it's gonna be a significant one.
of cos i don't do it cos young people out there are doing it.
i'm 22 this year and it's not 冲动.
it's has been on my mind for years.

so i know what i am doing.

i'm not satisfied with it's head and shape.
it's too straight.
will get it edited and touched up.

this is it's symbol.

yes, i might be having two.

我一点都不冲动.

stoning

stoning

stoning

2008-05-28T21:29:00.004+08:00

Happiness Vs Unhappiness

(edited)

anyway, i'm back from my busy busy p5 camp.
i missed the gathering cum dinner they had on that day.
sigh~

well, i managed to do kayaking during the p5 camp with my colleague.
it was damn fun la. although i know i'm damn tired on that day, i told myself i shldn't miss that out.
i regretted not going for the high rope challenge, rock climbing, flying fox and abseiling la... shucks!
i shld have brought longer bottoms. urgh~

nvm.. at least i went for kayak.
the current was so strong but i still manage to get out to the sea.. and came back safe.

during the camp.. i called up moe to enquire with regards to my nie intake.
good news here.. i'll be going in coming july!

yippie..

now i'm deciding if i shld stay in hall.
haha...

2008-05-18T18:31:00.002+08:00

Weekends

went for a night movie with Hong on friday night..
Made of Honour is great!!
2 thumbs up.. u all shld all go catch it!!

after that went for a drink at Giraffe @ Istana Park.
i had hoegaarden and hong went for budweiser.
just sat down and chit chat.. enjoy each other's accompany.

everything was great until i found out that i left my favourite shawl there..
but it was tooooo late! i already reach the void deck of my house.
*cry*

went back home immediately to surf the net to search for their hotline.
manage to get through it and told them i'll go and fetch it back by monday.
*phew!*

Saturday night

had dinner with my friend at st.james while hong went drinking session with his colleagues at robinson quay.

dinner at Charcoal located at st.james power house was great. had bbq beef, scallop, tiger prawns and so on... fantastic! go try it!!

went on to have a few more drinks ard st.james. my friend's a st. james member so he's able to sign in a friend for free. we went ard the place.. but dun really like it.. got so many old pple and pple like to stand there.. like statues.

duno issit i haven't club for too long.. i found the music so damn loud.. haha.
anyway, holidays coming soon.. clubbing shall come alive!!
Zouk... here i come...

ended up sitting by a bar, drinking again and chit chatting.

by the end of the night, we drank beer, hard liqour and cocktail..
it has been sometime since i drank so much.
but luckily i'm still good.. but not as good already i think.

i'm gonna drink more oftenly to train myself back. haha!

2008-05-13T18:54:00.003+08:00

Count Down

offically count down to the closure of term 2..
and off i go for my break/holiday...

to-do list:-

key-in marks --> check!!

oral duty (12/5 & 13/5) --> check!!

pft duty (15/5 & 16/5)

staff meeting (20/5)

parents' conference (21/5)

p5 camp (23/5 - 25/5)

1 and a half weeks more to go...

yippie!!

a few must catch movies.. =)

hope to get nie's letter soon!!

target of the year...

with 2 hands support from mummy, daddy & hong..

2008-05-07T23:17:00.001+08:00

Wrong Movie

do not watch Dance of the Dragon.. it's so boring.. yes!!!
zzz..!

bad choice of the day.

i know i go watch iron man!

HMPH!

2008-05-03T16:16:00.004+08:00

Random Updates

previously, my class and i had a new "pet" called caterpiii..
looking at it's name, i think u guys can guess it's actually a caterpillar.
had to have a caterpillar in class cos we need to give the kids a little hands on and exposure to real and living insects so as to allow them to relate better than just seeing it from books only.

overall, it was good!
my kids are all very responsible. they tok turns to change the leaves everyday and clear away caterpii's poop. and i must say caterpillars eat and poo ALOT! haha.
we had fun~

for 1 week plus they took good care of caterpii. i didn't take it's photo down cos i tot it's kinda disgusting.. haha..
green & slimy mao mao cong..

when we came back over the weekends, caterpii was gone.
it became a pupa...
it took almost 3 weeks to come out..
other class's took only 2 weeks. ours was damn slow..
the kids all tot it was dead.. cos the pupa turned brown and dry..
some kids went to take a look every period.. hoping it'll be back alive..
i felt abit heartache to see them disappointed and sad over the"dead" pupa.

one day.... tadah~
caterpii had tranformed into a....

BEAUTIFUL LIME BUTTERFLY!!!
seriously i haven't seen a butterfly at such a close distance.
it was so beautiful!!

the kids were all so excited and they were practically cheering..
"caterpii haven't die neh!!"

we can even see the dried up pupa shell..

soon, we have to free our beautiful caterpii.
i told the kids to gather by the classroom door and let them have the privilege to see their caterpii fly away.
i opened up the container's cover and caterpii flew away!!
the whole class clapped and said byebye to the butterfly.

i was quite fascinated by the whole process..

nowadays, my kids will say it's caterpii when they see a similar butterfly flying ard in school. they say caterpii is back to visit them. haha.

kids are always kids.. so cute and innocent. =)

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anyway, yesterday met up with fang.
had a pretty good catch up time with her. always had alot to talk abt.

all thanks to her, we're able to catch a dance showcase by LaSalle students. It's contemporary modern dance. those very abstract kinda dance which not much people actually can understand. even the 2 of us cannot understand. haha. but overall it's still nice. =)

i'll definately want to groom my daughter into a dancer.
but if i have a son, i'll let him take up music. he'll be the future lee hom.

and i'm serious!
i'm gonna tell darling about it tonight.

opps! side-tracked..

after tat went to bugis area to chill out. talked and waited for eric to come over and we continued with all the craps. ha..

only went off ard 12am.

hope to get to meet her more often. especially fri nites where we can spend longer time chilling out. =)

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finished watching ISWAK 2. gish.. why nice show finish so fast one.. and the ending is so not here and there!!! Urgh~ i wan it continue.. ZS is so sweet to XQ. i just love this two characters.. there're just so in love with each other. and both need each other badly. i cried so much while watching it.

the show makes me think so much about relationships.
nowadays people break up without much hesitation.. makes me wonder so much about "true love"

ok, not gonna comment so much on people's relationship. everyone have their own way of dealing with their relationship, so, there's no right or wrong.

may it be smooth or rocky. it's always your heart and commitment that matters most. and it decides how ur relationship ends up.

2008-04-29T19:15:00.003+08:00

Looking Forward

finally here's a public holiday. have been waiting for it for so long. the whole of april got ZERO public holiday. so boring..

yay! after tmr will be labour day. and tmr after work will be wedding dinner. yippie! i love wedding dinner. but always envy people get married.. the bride wears beautiful gown and the groom wears smart suit. *eyes blink blink*

when will it be my turn??

ok.. shh shh.. not gonna say more.

so, tmr can dress up nicely for the wedding. =)
hopefully staff meeting don't end TOO late.

hmm.. read cj's blog. her life seems so colourful with so many type of friends around.
eh, my life is so boring..

let me count..
i have 1 group of frens from RS which i seldom hang up with now due to my busy-ness.
i have 1 group of frens who are actually darling's sec frens which i'm not very close with.
i have 1 group of frens whom i call COLLEAGUES so we usually dun hang out outside school.

fullstop.

so pathetic lor.

i only goes out with either with darling or hf.
hais...

enough of unhappiness.

i want to be happy too..
but how leh..??

2008-04-26T00:54:00.002+08:00

Tired

today marks the end of sports day. we didn't win. but never mind. i guess we all enjoyed ourselves.

esp. the teacher's 4 x 100m relay. i was the 3rd runner. was damn shiok la. haven't ran for like so long already. just now i was running the shit out of me. i tot my legs detached from my body. cos i couldn't control my legs lor. haha. but according to my colleagues, they said i ran pretty fast. haha.. couldn't believe it la.

ended the whole event & reached sch at 1pm.

washed up and got ready for staff meeting at 2pm. was so tired.. wanted to doze off while eating my lunch. eventually, the meeting is being postponed to next wed.

happy... but sian also.. cos there'a long agenda and i'm sure the meeting on wed is going tp drag till 6+pm. after tat, still gotta attend dearling's cousin's wedding. i'm sure i'll be abit tired by then.

but!! but!! thursday is labour day!!! happy happy!! =)

ling's going taiwan with marc on sunday. makes me think abt my trip with darling to taiwan too. was so fun.. how i wish i can go there again. the next time i go, it won't be a shopping trip anymore. i'm just gonna be there to relax. take the time to slow down our pace and look ard. watch the scenery.. maybe can even go hualien to see whales at the pacific ocean.. and river rafting too..

i'm sure that'll be very fun!

but now.. we're aiming to go thailand end of the year first.. =) and it'll definately be a great trip..
it will be! it will be!!

i'm sure there won't be quarrels when it's just the 2 of us..
ever since our previous taiwan trip, i've learnt we should only go oversea alone. cos the more pple involved, the more influence there'll be and that's when conflicts come in. it was terrible to quarrel with my darling everyday lor.

i conclude.. i will only wanna go oversea with my darling only! =)

TO-DO LIST for year 2008
~ learn driving and get licence
~ get myself a laptop
~ go on a thailand trip with darling
~ get a new phone
~ go nie this mid july (not within my control)

realistic??
i think they're achieveable.
=)

will just slack with darling at home tmr. hope darling comes here early.
miss him..

2008-04-23T19:26:00.002+08:00

Sports Day

yeah! today's the last day of house training. finally selected 4 runners plus 1 reserve for my 4 x 100m relay. gave them crash course on how to pass the baton. previous training weren't successful cos of the cheer-leading practice. hopefully everything will turn out well on friday. =) just hope they dun get disqualified can liao..

now my house is only 10 points behind yellow house.. grr.. so irritating!! they're rough players.. no good sportmanship!! boo boo..

must try to get championship this year. i must say the p5 & p6 boys did damn well for the house game - ultimate frisby. =)

another thing.. s.h.i.t.. i'm chosen to run for my house's 4x100m relay together with 3 other teachers. gosh.. i haven't run short didtance for year!! can't even sprint la.. just hope i dun throw my house's face can liao.. haha.

Go!! Blue house! Go!!

finally meeting the bz bz huifang on next friday.. still so long to go..
wanted to meet on wed but i gotta go wedding dinner with darling on that day.. it's his cousin's.
aww.. wedding.. so sweeet! =P

as for this friday.. hopefully can meet pri sch frens..

hmm.. poor darling, still gotta do duty tonight..
can only go home late.

aiya~ suddenly feel like eating dim sum.
craving for it now!!
yummy! yum! yum!

ohh... miss my darling now~!

miss miss!!

2008-04-20T22:39:00.008+08:00

Randoms again

was thinking about studying..
so hoping tat i'll get in this coming july. =)

darling said wanna bring me to the singapore flyer during the weekend. but, i didn't want to. i wanted it to be a special trip.. probably on some special occasion? or surprise? it's supposed to be a romantic place.. rite??

i'm like dreaming so much on it... even before the whole thing was up.

maybe he'll bring me there on my birthday?
maybe... he'll bring me there and propose an engagement to me??
maybe.... he'll bring me there on our 2nd anni? but.. aiyo, have to wait till end of the year.
maybe...... he'll bring me there and propose marriage to me?? err.. but that'll be even longer.. at least another 4 years down the road *faint*.. think the flyer would already be rusty by then?? haha!

so the first 2 more possible rite??
BEST is.. both take place on the same day!! =)
cos tat has been my dream.. really!! engagement on my golden birthday!!
guess wat, my mum and dad got engaged on my mum's 22nd birthday.. or maybe 21st.

it'll be so nice to have it happen again for her next generation rite.. hee hee.

but it wouldn't be meaningful if i were to ask for it.. later he thinks i'm forcing him into some kinda marriage thing..

to me, engagement is something significant & important cos it's an assurance. to some people esp. modern young people, it's too old fashion to get engaged. maybe it only applies to other races now. but it's something which i need.. cos marriage for us is still so far away.. i wouldn't want him to be my boyfriend for 5 years. not for me! relationship needs to move forward to certain level at times.

hopefully he feels the same way..
cos i'm not gonna be thick-skinned to go to him and ask for it..

but my ROM/wedding must be at mt.faber

Shh...

and good nite~

2008-04-17T21:13:00.002+08:00

Randoms

came back home late today all becos of the boring cca in school. tried all means to make time pass faster hence ended up playing badminton with the kids.. somehow it works! good thing my old(opps! i mean OH~!) good colleague gave me a lift to the mrt station. =)

looking forward to tmr.. yeah~ it's FRIDAY. a very slacking day in school for me. hopefully nth on after school and i can get home early. =)

but friday nights has been kinda low. there's no meeting of friends.. no movies.. no shopping.. no favourite late night outings.. no clubbing.. no chilling.. (all that you can list out)

i think my friends have forgotten me already. ever since i went into this line, i've been so busy.

sigh~

but my friends aren't the type that likes to chiong.. i'm so different from them. hopefully i'll get to know friends of my types when i get into nie. =) tat's the only thing i look forward to in nie.. can make new friends.

talking abt nie.
i do hope i'll get the chance to get in THIS july. school told me that my name have been submitted but still everything have to depend on available vacancy in nie. pls give me a place..*cross finger*

oh yes, have been starting to run.. yes! RUN~ partly due to the influence of house practice in school. seeing the kids train for sports day, make me so enthu. another reason being, i've been eating too much snacks lately and now i'm growing <--- this way--->. and i simply can't take it!!
i'm glad i'm motivated!!

i need to have a new haircut. i wanna grow my hair long back again. for a change. bored of my short hair already.. hee hee. so now, i can only trim and rebond, trim and rebond .. until it grows loooong again.. i wonder how long it'll take.

alright, i'm going off.
tmr gotta wake up at 5am.
going school early to help the kids to make-up for their SYF.

ciaoz.

2008-04-12T01:57:00.002+08:00

School

felt so bothered. preparatory course mates revert back to me saying their school had approached them with regards to admission issue. hais. i didn't hear a word from my school. approached school before and realised what they said are so "pr", not accurate at all. probably just to entertain me only. according to course mates, school's supposed to submit our names up to the institute. but school in the other hand said it depends on vacancy of institute. story is so different from two ends.. =(

sigh~ i really wanna get in this year. i hope school will be helpful abt it..

hope to get good news soon..

*cross finger*

2008-04-02T21:53:00.003+08:00

PSP

i so sad.. cos my PSP cannot play Patapon. in fact, if i'm not wrong.. the firmware is not upgraded to a certain version and hence won't be able to play 2008's new games .

help~ =(

at last!! i've booked my final theory test!
i passed my basic theory 4 yrs ago.. can u believe it.. haha..

gonna start learning my driving this year. have been dragging for too long already..

theory test will be conducted on 16 june. =)

2008-04-02T00:03:00.001+08:00

i agree that i shouldn't post sensitive issues in a public blog. i might just hurt his feelings.

thnx juan for reminding me. =)

2008-03-18T22:22:00.002+08:00

Contract Teaching

attended a 2 full day course on class preparatory and management. find it rather useful. might ba able to apply them when i go back to school tomorrow onwards.

met nice batch mates over there.. very fun loving people. click especially well with 2 of the girls over. people thought we knew each other before coming for the course.. haha! anyway, we were hoping to get into NIE together coming July.. probably can stay in hostel together too. =)

tomorrow's the day~

start of my contract teaching. although things will still somehow be the same (more or less i think) but i'm stil nervous.. i don't know why!!

i think more eyes will be watching me.. and i've got no reason to do things wrongly. grrr... so scary~ i'm so afraid to be arrowed by hod. and i'm so so so afraid to be under 'her' charge.

pray hard that i won't be under 'her'

pls pls pls.. let me be under a nicer supervisor/hod...

seriously don't how things will be when i get back to school tomorrow. somehow seem to lost the momentum..

gosh.. it's just a week away from school.. guess i'm just too stressed up by the whole contract teaching thing!!!

alrite.. i've gotta relax.. breathe in.. breath out.. breathe in.. breathe out..

RELAX~

everything will be fine.. just like my entrance profiency test.. i manage to pass it.. haa..

miracles do happen!!

2008-03-15T20:28:00.003+08:00

Very Random

been home for the whole day, i thought that wasn't a bad idea afterall. firstly i can save money, secondly i can have a full recharge before the new school term start and lastly i can build a better relationship with mom.

i'm getting nervous as the term gets closer. i'll be a contract teacher which means my responsibility will become heavier and i'll be obliged to do duties and attend meetings without excuses. gosh~

but this marks the start of getting a fixed pay. which is a good thing. i know it's no big deal for some people la cos they've been getting fixed pay for duno how long le ma..
but it's BIG deal to me okay!

to me, fixed pay means able to give parents more money, save for my future, and bigger spending power etc.

eh, i suddenly realised that the photos i uploaded becomes smaller le. that means the resize work! but why so slow de ar.. haha. thought it's supposed to be an immediate effect? haha..

i wanna start saving.. darling says we can go thailand end of the year. yeah! i've been bugging him abt it after we came back from taiwan. so looking forward to the it.. that will mark the third trip for us. =) wow.. go thailand leh.. i know it's not far la.. but can buy lotsa cheap clothings. woo hoo.. shopping shopping..

talking abt clothings.. i hate it went 'somebody' wears my DRESS. dresses are my favourite! so, please refrain from wearing my DRESS. i don't mind if this 'somebody' wears my tee or shorts or jeans or what so ever.
just don't touch my favourite clothings (my shirt dress and dresses). it's the same when u ask me not to touch your GAP tee!! Get it??!!

people nowadays really very bu zi dong one.. know how to say people but they themselves are behaving that way..

sigh!

aiyo.. i've been complaining so much..
haha.

finally, darling finish his strong man event. tmr he still gotta supervise some workers on stuffs but that shouldn't take up too much time cos he ask me to look for him at ard 1pm+.

=)

i'll stay over tmr since monday's training course is at orchard. from tpy to orchard is only less than 15mins.

miss u.

2008-03-12T19:37:00.003+08:00

Bored

darling was here last night.. unexpectedly!
he gave me a call after his late work asking me what i'm doing and stuffs like tat. As i was happily chatting with him on the phone, i heard a slight knock on my door. It was him!

darling will be very busy for the rest of this week. i know i'll hardly see him. tat's why i was so happy to see him. =)

had a great night with darling. i dig his accompany everytime! i wonder 10.. 20 years down the road.. we'll still be as loving or not.. hmm..

hee.. whatever it is.. i will treasure what's in front of me presently.

i love him to bits!!

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changed my blog skin.
posted some pictures on disney on ice.
manage to resize the first 2 pictures but the resize doesn't work for the rest of the pictures!!
gosh~
photos are so big.. can even see my pimple!

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went brunch and bowling with my colleagues this afternoon.
was fun! haven't played bowling for like duno how long... i remembered the last time i played frequently was with darling.. after which we stopped till now.

haha.

anyway, camwhored but pictures not with me!

i love my colleagues. can't imagine how it'll be without this grp of people. guess life in school will not be as fun. really hope to go NIE together with them. =)

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got a 1 day part time job this friday. gonna bring a bunch of kids to zoo..
haha.
agreed to do it cos i got nth better to do alrdy..

i miss my baby..

2008-03-11T21:30:00.005+08:00

Disney On Ice

finally found some time to upload some photos. took all these during the disney on ice show. was not too bad. if i'm a kid, i'll be fascinated. i think it's really cool.

behind my our seat were some kids. they were damn excited la. so cute too. i told darling that we must at least bring our kid to disney on ice at least once. cos i want it to be part of their childhood memories.

darling agree! =)

took a walk at the bridge outside the stadium. haven't 'pak tor' like this for quite sometime already. was kinda romantic i thought.. hee..

i love my darling.. always~

2008-03-07T23:03:00.003+08:00

Disney On Ice

it's happening tomorrow!!
although it's no longer a surprise for darling.. cos he manage to find out already. but! i know we're gonna enjoy our day tomorrow~

so looking forward to it.

i'm so glad i was able to get a 10% off for the tickets!
anyone interested may get the discount coupon from me. =)

* discount only applicable for cat 2 to cat 4 tickets.

2008-03-03T23:40:00.002+08:00

Surprise!

i wanna give darling a surprise.. but duno he'll like it anot. scully he thinks that i'm childish.
oh well, anyway.. it'll only work if he's available on that day and that day. got 2 days for him to choose.
:(
hais, so hard to confirm..

and scared he's too smart to guess where i want to bring him to.
cos everytime, my surprise tend to fail.
guess he just know me too well..

s.a.d

2008-02-28T21:05:00.006+08:00

Troubled

have been troubled over the past three weeks and falling sick after that. doesn't seem to be an improved year for me. :(

family issue has been giving me alot of headaches. don't even feel like going home. it's just so dead. sometimes, i don't know what's the point of going home when i only go back to sleep and bathe.

it doesn't seem like a family anymore. why are things becoming so miserable.

the only alive thing at home is my dog. the only living thing that seems notice me.

cos of all these, it makes my day in school bad. i get so irritated easily and i don't know how much have i been scolding my kids. thinking back, i felt sorry for them. i know it's unfair to them.

it was so bad that i felt my blood pressure shot up and made me dizzy after scolding a couple of kids who made me angry the day before. till day, my body's still not recovered. i get headaches when i project my voice and during PE when i stand under the sun. i think my blood pressure's still not back to normal.

i even feel feverish today. so went home right after school and sleep. the journey back home was terrible. my head felt so heavy. sad to say, panadol only puts a temporary stop to the headache.

i know it's gonna come again tomorrow.

sigh~

loneliness.. the thing i hate most.

how i wish darling can be with me everyday. cos meeting him is the only thing i look forward to, may it be after a good day or bad day.

but he said it's not possible. :(

sometimes, i wonder if he'd blame me for being so dependant on him. cos i know i am.
he's the only person whom i can lean on during my troubled days. he's also the only one whom i wanna look for when i have happiness to share.

darling, i can say you're my everything.

am i?

p.s. i love you

2008-02-27T20:13:00.003+08:00

Monday Blues

had a very bad mood on monday night which made me cry so hard. the person whom i can only think of is darling. at that point of time, i just hope that he could be there for me, hugging me tight. but he was home.

i msged him thou he fell aslp alrdy. i just wanted to let him know i was sad. darling called me back. i was glad to hear his voice. he was just asking me why i was crying so hard. i just said i duno. just felt moody. he didn't continue asking. just telling me not to cry and calm down, and he promise he'll be right here the next day.

i duno why.. but i felt much more better.. :)

P.S. I Love You

decided to check out "p.s. i love you" yesterday night since tonight will be the last show. i cried throughout the whole show cos it was damn touching. after the show i kept thinking what i would do if darling was to leave me one day.. i think i'd be devastated. probably i'll die too. cos i know i'm so dependent on him.

i cried even when i'm slping too cos i kept think about the show. darling called me silly cos he said he's right here beside me. he hugged me to slp ALL NIGHT.. :) love this feeling!

i will never ever want to leave him or let him leave me. i know i'm selfish. but i really need him very much.

i hope darling can cheer up. i know he has his problems recently and how i wish i could help him out. only hope darling can open up to me more often with regards i can help or not. please do not keep everything to yourself cos you think that i can't help and you dun want to worry me.

darling.. we're together on this boat. please let me share your burden.
at least emotionally.

p.s. i love you very very much

2008-02-18T00:05:00.002+08:00

continue...

i said all those not to blame you. i said all those not to ask you to shower all faults on yourself.
i felt sad. i just need you by my side during my weakest moment.

i never thought that what you've said to me are nasty comments. darling, in fact i don't expect you to say a single word. i just need a comforting hug from you. just like what i've told you this afternoon.

it has always been like that. just that you doesn't seemed to catch my meaning...

2008-02-17T14:21:00.003+08:00

Feeling Blue

sometimes, it's not all about telling you what happen that'll makes me feel better. all i need may just be a simple hug from you. i feel stress from tomorrow's exam. i feel stress about having to complete so much work in a short time span. basically, i'm having a bad day. i know you're tired from work too. i admit i'm not as good as you when it comes to handling emotions and stress.

i just need some comfort to feel better. a silent hug will really helps alot.

in fact, i get more stressed when you keep bugging me on what happen. i really don't know how to start telling you. you'll never get an answer from me.

after all these time of being together, you still don't understand what i need. what you'll do is to keep quiet and let me suffer alone. becos you give up asking me what happen.

that's you.

isn't it?

2008-01-31T19:34:00.000+08:00

Birthday Girl

happy birthday to out dearest cj. always the first one to start our new age rolling. Happy 22nd!!

gosh.. just a blink of an eye. we are turning 22nd this year.. goodness! that's how fast time flies.
years just disappear without us knowing.

wasn't able to attend the birthday dinner cum gathering this evening. cos sch ended late. just reached home only. and i'm super tired. apologise for my absence. hope u girls had a great time & dinner.

Learning Journey

anyway, no lesson for my class today due to excursion. went to pasir ris's kids' kampong. had different activites. catch drain fishes with the kids. feeding goose & fishes. playing with white mice & gerbils. was very fun.

although i went there last year but i didn't really had a chance to experience the whole thing due to an accident that had happened.

oh well, at least i enjoyed it this time round! :)

Medical checkup

tmr gotta rush off from school for my medical checkup at raffle medical centre somewhere at bugis. wonder how long that would take. Zzz...

2008-01-29T23:27:00.000+08:00

Lack of Exercise

ever since i started teaching this year, i haven't been exercising. good thing about last year, at least i still have yoga lesson which is also a form of excercise. i stopped cos i wanna go true yoga. but i guess i can only wait till i get my full fletch pay which will only start in term 2.

then, that's when i can afford to pay for the super expensive true yoga monthly fee. i can only say that they're really good. i am willingly to pay cos they're all professionals and of cos the service. =)

i miss yoga

i miss yoga

but somehow i'm getting thinner.. :(

doesn't seemed like a good news to be slim now cos i'm getting abit too slim.. :( most probably the kids in school suck away all my energy..

yup!
must be it!

if not.. then what?!

2008-01-26T12:24:00.000+08:00

Back from weeks of BUSY-NESS

School

has been really busy throughout the weeks i haven't been blogging. weeks pass by so quickly without knowing. rushing through datelines for so much things: english noticeboard, classroom deco(haven't finish yet), markings of books etc etc..

i've been bringing work home almost everyday. no time to breathe.. even weekends, like today. i've still got work to do. i swear i must finish everything by today before darling knock off from work. darling says only this way then i can enjoy the thing call WEEKEND. Yes.. i almost forgot what are weekends.. :(

NIE

good news~
i've got my appointment letter to serve as contract teacher in school starting term 2 (march 17).

just in case you're unsure what is it.. nie's only admission is july/august hence untrain teachers will be posted to schools to serve as contract teachers before the nie admission. but that can last from minimum 6 months up to 2 years.. depending on your progress in school. if you're good and the principal thinks that you're cut for this line, then most probably you'll be getting into NIE on the nearest next intake. if not.. extend lor.

for my case, i was given a 1yr to 1.5 yrs of contract appointment. hopefully my 1st appeal to get back into my current school as contract teacher is successful. but i'll only receive my posting around start of march. :(

if i successfully get back to my current school as a contract teacher, then i guess the possibility of getting my 2nd appeal approved would be higher. i sent in a request and even called up moe to check if i can get a shorter contract term. but they replied me saying that the only way to get into the next nie admission is only through my posted school. if my progress is good then i'll be recommended to get into nie sooner.

that's why i hope i can get back to my current school so hopefully they can help me. i've been here for so long and i hopefully what i did in school as a relief teacher can get me a good recommendation.

if not, i've to abandon my current form class.. and start in a new school all over again.. :(

MOE

took a day off on thursday from school and went over to moe to sign my appointment letter. :) very excited. i guess this is the day i've been looking forward too. of course, the most looking forward day would be the day i go into nie. :)

had a briefing early in the morning then signed the paper there. haha. of course without any second thoughts!

hope that's a good start. :)

HAIR

went to clementi to rebond my hair at a very good rate. :) thnx to yiling for recommending me there.

but i always hate the first few days of my hair. always so flat.. i hate flat head.

anyway, i didn't cut my hair there. will be going back to gina's before cny for a hair cut. i always know there's no problem letting her cut. of cos, the price is different too.. ha!

SHOPPING

finally found sometime to do some shopping for cny. previously went to far east plaza to buy a very colourful dress chose by darling. thought was a bit too colourful la. but i thought why not give it a try. :)

bought a bf's shirt from espirit.. very expensive but i love it so much. :)

then yesterday after work, went down to far east plaza again but this time alone. do some final shopping. bought 2 dresses, 1 belt and 1 shorts. total damage for yesterday: $105

total damage for cny: $ 207.

luckily this year i don't need to buy any footwear. bought 2 pairs from taiwan and alot of random ones from mondo. i guess i just need to look into my shoe cabinet(which is now full of my heels) then mix & match with my new clothings. :)

AOB

i'm very poor right now.. so don't need to ask me out for shopping. unless you're treating me. haha.. ;)

coming up next would be my medical check-up next friday and my english entrance profiency test on 18 feb which i hope i'll pass. xP

2008-01-10T18:10:00.000+08:00

Finally received MOE letter offering me an appointment to be a contract teacher. But the thing i'm unhappy abt, is the duration of the contract. I'm being offered a 1yr to 1.5 yrs of contract teaching. That means i can only get into NIE next year July.

I wanna get my myself a place in coming admission leh.

I've been working so long in school le.. I thought it would be best that i can officially get trained asap.

Hopefully.. appeal will be successful & if there's a need to get help from school, i hope school will help me out promptly.

Contract will commerce coming March. Hopefully i'll be able to stay in this school since i've been given a class already. Dun really wanna start all over in a new school. Such a hassle to re-adapt to a new environment.

Another thing i'm worried abt is the EL EPT. Cos of my stupid C6 for English, i've to sit for EL EPT (English Entrance Profiency Test) before i enter NIE. Sianz.. Hopefully that will not be a barrel to me from gettiing into NIE.

x (

ciaoz..

2008-01-04T18:43:00.000+08:00

Woke up late this morning hence reported MC. Didn't go to school. Luckily school just started therefore i'm not too behind time.

Kinda free today so intend to upload the taiwan photos. These were the chosen ones if not i really have TONS to upload and i tink that would take forever.

Hmm.. anyway i think i resize until too small liao but again.. i'm too lazy to redo them again..

so.. Bear with it k.. Hee hee.

DAY 1

at the airport. everyone's super excited.

darling using their free internet access then we went BK for our brunch.

everyone's bored from the waiting.. and finally it's time to board the plane.

Nobody will believe it's Jake's virgin plane trip. Haha..

Air view..

Darling and I have different ways of killing time.

I can see the moon from the plane. Finally i see mountains.. and we're reaching after 4+hrs!!

Taipei!!
Took Free-Go bus to our hotel.

Ximending.. where our hotel is located.. =)

Dinner at XMD.
Bubble tea and their Ah Zong Mee Sua is a MUST!!

Their road side hawker. No licence.. It's funny to see how they hide from the police and after awhile they'll come back again.

DAY 2

While waiting for the girls to come down. The guys camwhore. Haha..

Darling's pointing to Milk CANDY shop. Went JSP for breakfast. Very yummy sandwiches..

Their mailbox. Red & Green.. So cute.
Their metro station = Our MRT station
We bought their "ez-link" card which gonna last us for the rest of our trip.

Taipei's MRT

Our way to Dan-Shui

The LOVER'S BRIDGE

Darling helping to take photo.
I tot he look like some kinda pro photographer.. Kim too..

Fishermen's Wharf

Us with our funny poses..

More and more pix..

Exchange partners.. =)

Darling's strong.. Piggy back me & jo
Ate Mister Donut after tat. Mini tea-break.

On the way to hot spring.. No photos taken there la.. Cos u know.. Haha..

After hot spring.. engergized!!

Going to Hualien the next day so discussing abt the time for the train.
The guys acting cute. They really can do it better than girls..

Dinner @ Tian Wai Tian..
They serve Hagen Daz ice-cream.. FREE FLOW!! Can u believe it..

DAY 3

Bought our boots the day before..
Feels wonderful wearing boots without people giving u weird look.. unlike Singapore..
Darling & Roger waiting for us while the girls shop for masks.. hee hee..

Lunch in their convenience store cos the shop at Wu Fen Pu are all not open yet. We wenr too early le.. So end up taking lunch here. Unique experience!!

Continuing our train journey...

Went on to take the Maokong cable car.. On our way there..

Going into the cable car..

Super good view.. It's DAMN high up lor..

Reach Maokong.. Gotta go hiking..

Didn't know the viewing station was so high up.. Our determination killed us.. It's so not worth it cos the "viewing station" is just a small piece of bare land. =(

The "viewing station" map.
Went down and had lunch.

While on the way back to the metro station.. we saw this!! Haha..

Went back to Wu Fen Pu.. Damn disappointing.. All the stuffs there so or-biang.. Didn't buy a single piece of clothing lor.. And the guys sat ard.. cam-whore.. eating fen yuan bing

Night time was Shih lin night market.. Saw our fave Ah Zong Mee Sua.. and our dinner settled!!

Crispy potato swirl ard the stick with all sorts of flavour.. Very nice!!

They had tons of pet shop there.. selling pups. Kawaii!!

Day4

take train to Hualien very early in the morning.. All still looking sleepy.. Woke up at 6am.

Took a nap in the train..

Scenery was good along the way..

Reach Hualien.. Checked into our hotel and proceed to their Ocean Park.

Saw dolphin show.. Very nice..

Had pizza for lunch.. and MORE camwhoring sessions..

Next was the sea lion show..

Saw "mermaid" = sea cow.. It loves hugging the diver's thigh..

Dead tired after the whole day..

Day 5

TAROKO GOUGE

Saw a little water fall.. Preeeety!

Guys even wanna take photos with the sign boards.. Haha..
Saw very very very CLEAR water.. I think it's shen qi shui.. Better than SK2!!

Can u see a Red Indian??
The guys trying to dig it's nose.. Haha..

More scenery...

Making a fool of ourselves.. Posing again..

The hanging bridge..

Shakadang Trail was beautiful as well..

Went on to a beach by the Pacific Ocean!! VERY BEAUTIFUL!!

Huge waves.. Beautiful pebbles..

Even picked up some special looking ones to keep as memories..

Hualien MuaChee.. and their Cong Yu Bing.. Super delicious..

That also marks the end of our Hualien trip..

Will be back in the summer for whale watching and river rafting.. Real soon!! =)

Day 6

Went to Jiu Fen to buy their local products..

Found delicious, yummy food there too..

Walked all the way to the end and found a good view of the place..

Went to Taipei Main Station to do some shopping..

and back to XMD for dinner.. Goose noodle soup. Yum Yum.

After dinner, took their nicely decorated shuttle bus to Taipei 101

It only takes 45 sec to reach 89 storey. FAST!!

Damper Baby..

More silly pictures.. at Taipei 101's lobby

Outside was all Christmas lightings..

We're all into Christmas mood. =)

Sat around to chit chat and relax since it's our last night in Taipei..

Day 7

The group split up.

Darling & myself intend to stay ard XMD.. Saw Soler and a new female singer..

And also a maltese walking on 2 hind legs. Poor doggie.. It's owner scolded him when he wants to walk in fours.. Dog are supoose to walk in fours what!!

Overall was a very satisfying trip.. Everyone enjoyed themselves to the max..

Would really wanna go back again soon.

It's just so happening there..

No wonder Kim goes Taiwan every school holiday..

Guess i'll soon be doing that too.. Haha..

Alright.. As promised, photos all up. =)

Last but not least Happy New Year to all..

Ciaoz..

2007-12-11T15:52:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 1st ANNIVERSARY!!

yippie.. finally it's here.
just wanna shout it out to darling.. saying "I LOVE YOU!"

shall leave out the mushy ones.

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a little cutie pie to make ur day.. =)

listen to her cute little voice.
look at how she roll her little eyes.
and.. her action..

WHATEVER!!

wish i have adorable baby like this. =)

2007-12-10T21:23:00.000+08:00

having bad relationship with parents is the worst thing ever. cos u have to face them everyday yet can't talk to them.
this sucks.

and it's happening to me now.

i duno what to do with my them. they're getting more different.
bias-ness.. money issue..

quarreling with mom is the worst of the worst. plus i'll be staying at home all day facing her. nobody to talk to. the only person who can deal with them and stand all the shit will be sis. but she won't be home till night. Gosh~

urgh~

S.U.C.K.S

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shall not talk abt unhappy things.
i'm looking forward to taiwan trip. it's coming sunday!! but i haven't pack yet.
it's gonna be a week away frm home. yippie!!

nobody will understand how i feel

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2 more hours and it's be OUR 1st Annivearsary.
YAY!!

probably some will say it's just only 1 year what.
well, compared to some people out there.. 1 year may be nothing to you.
But for the past 365 days, each & everyday's a fruitful day for us. and no matter how much time we've spent together, we've cherished every minute & every second.

we are no fanciful couple. no big hoo-ha throughout the relationship.
we believe in simplicity & true love.

to me, love is nothing if there's no faithfulness, sincerity and passion for each other. of cos, it's not a bed of roses when maintaining all these.

what the point of doing fanciful things to prove your love for someone. it's so materialistic.
we believe it's the heart that will keep the relationship moving.

coming together is a beginning, keeping together is a progress; working together is success.

Happy Anninversary, darling.
I love you.

2007-12-08T00:21:00.000+08:00

everyone seemed to be busy..
i'm like so free~
always lazing ard at home, doing nothing. hais..

can't seem to find any programmes.. guess it's due to me having not much good frens ard.
i dun even know my best fren went overseas.
probably it's me who's not a good fren to pple.

=(

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went for nie interview today.
they asked me qns like:
1) what's ur experience when working as a teacher in class?
2) wat are the challenges that you've met?
3) what are 2 things that will allow u to continue as a teacher?
4) are there any downturns tat u met so far?
5) what will be your plan if this interview is unsuccessful?
6) how do you think abt implementing SEED in schools?

i tot i've answered okay for the first 5 qns.
only worry was the last qns which was on SEED (a kinda prog used in schs). not too sure if i answered it correctly thou.

hopefully everything goes well. =)

one thing that was different frm all other interviews.. they did not ask me if i have any qns before the interview ended. *weird*

hopefully everything goes well.

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went lunch with josh.
made me wait for so long... was so hungry that i nearly faint.
but had a pretty good catch up with him.
accompanied him sell phone also. hopefully the price is okay.
haha~

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wun be seeing darling for the next few days.
got company chalet and events thru-out the weekend.
sigh~ starting to miss him liao..

coming tues will be out 1st anni.
super happy =)

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taiwan trip will be just next sunday..
countdown~~ only 8 more days.

guess joanna is more excited than me lor.
haha..
will be meeting up for our itinerary tmr. =)

2007-12-06T00:22:00.001+08:00

I've been working on a secret project..
Hee! hee!

Shall be announced soon.......

2007-12-05T02:38:00.000+08:00

I decided to revamp my blog right after i posted the entry. got the urgh to look new. Thought the previous blogskin was getting uglier after looking more at it. Eeww...

I was super enthu about it and i finish revamping my blog in 2hrs time. Haha.. It's 2.40am now. Sounds crazy, but it think it's fine cos i couldn't sleep anyway..

Haven't been able to fall into deep sleep these few days. Have been dreaming alot too. All sorts of things, you wouldn't believe it.. It's insane. *not that serious*

Dreamt about my beloved dog passing away.. Dreamt about an incident that happened during secondary school.. etc.

I was crying so hard in my dreams.. And i realised i was crying in real life too! Cos i woke up with a wet pillow and was breathing so hard.

Couldn't believe it. It was so real~! Hopefully i'll have sweet dreams tonight to compensate myself for last night's bad dreams..

2007-12-05T00:17:00.000+08:00

M.y b.l.o.g n.e.e.d.s a r.e.v.a.m.p!!

2007-12-03T17:20:00.000+08:00

Happy December!! It's the last month of the year 2007. It's a happy month.. So many things to be happy about..

1) It's a long holiday for me thou no pay.
2) It's going to be our 1st anni
3) Just went for Show's concert which was damn high!
4) Taiwan trip in 2 weeks' time.. Yes!!
5) It's Christmas season.
6) Interview for teaching post on coming Friday.

See.. happy anot.. =)

Look at the pictures..
Can u guess what they're made up from..??

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They're from crocs..!!
(did i spell it correctly??)
Look carefully..

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My house's Christmas tree is up.
Just waiting for presents to fill up the area.. Hee!!

She's my present since 7 years ago..

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Show's Concert

Before the concert, we went to the Oasis for dinner.

I shall just let the photos do the talking..
Kinda small.. so bear with it. =)

special guest was Rainie Yang. She's cute. =)

Overall.. I love it and it was worth the ticket price.. Super high!

and Xiao Zhu was so cool!!

can dance, can host, can sing.. Two thumbs up!!!

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Taiwan trip is just 2 weeks away.

Soooooooo excited!!

But some of the things still not prepared.

Cold wear.. Luggage..

hmm.. what else..

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Went NSC just now. Toe warts still not going away leh.

So irritating.

and the treatment is getting more painful..

next week s the last treatment already. i guess more treatments will be booked..

sigh~

so broke now..

haven't even pay bills yet..

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1 more week to our 1st Anni.

I don't think there'll be any special celebration.

I can understand. cos we're going taiwan soon and we don't wish to spend unnecessarily.

hmm.. just a dinner together will do.

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no money to buy darling any Anni cum X'mas present.

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Good news comes the last!

Received letter from MOE. Interview coming Friday.

Wish me best of luck! Hopefully i'll get in this time round.

Don't wish to stay as relief teacher lor. So lowly paid.. Plus no benefits..

2007-11-27T23:45:00.000+08:00

has been a week or so..

i'm finally well after getting sick for like 2 weeks.

Went for my 2nd NSC appt ytd. Was damn painful.. so much more painful den the previous session.. Gosh.. Got another 2 more to go, once a week.. Hais..

As long as it can heal.. I'm sure i can take the pain. =)

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fang recommended a 2 weeks temp job.
Hopefully can get it.

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Went Yoga ytd too..
Haha.. Feel more healthy after the session.
If not, I feel fat..

Going tw soon.. I wanna look good and feel good.. =)
Plus healthy too!!

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Finally got myself a new haircut.
So happy.. No longer having bob.
Layered instead.

Feels so much lighter as well.

But the first few days.. i'm sure to have flat head.
Those did rebonding before will know what i'm saying.
Haha..

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Such a random post.
Oh well, doesn't matter..
It's MY blog anyway..

haha..

Miss my darling..

2007-11-20T20:48:00.000+08:00

The long awaited school holiday is HERE! And all sort of illness attacked me together in one shot. Haven't been sick for such a long time and i'm feeling so weak. Wanted to look for temp job but i guess it's really not the right time now. Sigh~

Was under paid for my previous pay. I think it'll only comes in together with the next pay. Hais~ Still.. It's not much, I wonder how i can survive till next year with such little amount of money..

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Went to see doctor ytd. spent so much!! You wouldn't believe it..
Got my pills for delaying my menses for next month. Guess that contributes to the big amt spent on medical bills.

Well, i will not allow my menses to disturb my taiwan trip!!

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Finally went for my NSC appointment. They sprayed liquid nitrogen on my left big toe. I've got 1 big viral wart & 8 small ones on it. The nurse did 2 cycles which was damn painful la.. It feels so stinging and my whole toe went numb immediately.. I wonder how low the temp was. But at least it's bearable. Best thing is.. I still got 3 more sessions to go.. -_-"

Doctor told me that it might still come back cos virus are everywhere. Only when my body rejects the virus then that's when it will disappear from my life.

Pray that my body is strong enough!!

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I just reapplied for teaching post tpgether with a referral letter from my vice-principal. Hope i'll get the interview soon before my taiwan trip. Of cos, it'll be great if i can get a place for myself this time.

Yes.

For those that didn't know.. It's my second try.

Hopefully my last too..

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Anyone has lobang for temp jobs??
Rmb to intro me k.. =)

Cheerios.

2007-11-13T20:15:00.001+08:00

Have been very sick.
Bad flu + headache + feverish
These were dragged from last week......................

Wanted to take mc on Monday. But was afraid about report book issues. Eventually i went to work and kenah alot of shit work from e old witch. Today was bad too. Kenah relief class from the stupid old witch again. Tmr also bad la.. After school got Meet-the-Parents session and i have like 20 parents to meet. Things will only end around 6pm. I wonder how i can talk to them with my current situation.

Arhh... So sick + lethargic leh!!

No matter how much Panadol Cold Relief i take also no use..

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So many things to be done yet i got not enough time.

So tired. So unhappy.

I was wrongly paid for this half a month. I worked for 8 days but was only paid 5 days.
Cheat my money!!!

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I so poor now. Next Monday still need to go NSC to find cure for my toe. Confirm not cheap!!
Who wants to do donation?? I need money..

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This week is last week of school.
VP still owe me my recommendation letter.
Say will give it to me tmr.. Duno will forget anot.
Sianz..

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I need temp job.
But i'm only like available for 3 weeks.
20 Nov to 10 Dec

Like bu san bu si leh..

Darling ask me dun work lor but dun work equals no money at all leh.

HOW??!

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tell me if i'm over reacting..

I happened to be browsing thru darling's phone gallery.
I saw pictures of him & his colleagues when they went St. James last Friday.
Can see he had fun on that day. He & his colleagues like so close.
Got one pic.. he stand like so close to a female colleague lor.
And obviously i'm not happy.
He say i'm thinking too much..

I get jealous easily these days.
I get very unhappy easily too..

I started to doubt him too.. I duno why..
Not that i dun trust him.
I dun trust the people outside..

And i've see and hear too many mishaps around me..
These somehow cause me to be more caution..

I know it's so unhealthy for a relationship..
But i just can't help it..

He and his colleagues see each other everyday..
They travel out together due to work.
but..

ri jiu shen qing...

He trust me.. I know i need to trust him too. I dun wan our relationship to be so shallow.
Something must be wrong with me..
Issit cos i'm not feeling well that why i'm thinking so much??

I need advices..
I need advices..

= (

2007-11-09T22:29:00.000+08:00

~VERY WORDY POST~

I have a habit of typing my feelings into my hp & save them into my Draft folder. I believe these are my real feelings at that very moment.

I have been feeling kinda down these week.

E.M.O

Monday... 5/11.
As he works longer in the company, the rs between him & his colleagues will gradually become closer. I'm not sure if i'm thinking too much. But somehow, i'm not getting as much attention from him as before. I'm not trying to steal away his private time with his workmates. Maybe you can plainly say that i'm jealous? Ha~ I seriously also duno wat i'm thinking. I guess it's just that i'm too dependant on him already. And i can feel even the slightest change. If he's gonna see this entry, i'm sure he'll say i'm not maintaining a healthy rs. I know i'm abit possesive over him. I trying to adjust and i guess it'll take sometime. Guess that's wat happen when honeymoon period is over.. Guys will never be sensitive over this kinda problems.

He always ask me to go and make new friends. Tell me where i shld start? I always hope to have a bigger circle of friends. Unfortunately, i dun have. Guess i can even count them with one hand. Sometimes, i just hope i can get back to school cos at the same time i can get to know new people too. Guess that's the only way to get my attention away from him and den focus on new things ard me. Waiting for that day to come...

Thursday... 8/11
He's sleeping now. Although he's just right beside me but i still feel.. hmm.. lonely? Not sure if that's the right feeling. But anyway, i tend to save his msges tat i find meaningful and nice into a folder in my hp. Last time, darling tend to send me MMS too.. Guess it's one way to keep and recall good memories and that can be as and when u like just like NOW. As i look thru e smses & mms, i somehow teared. Msges started off when darling's still working in starhub. As time pass.. the kinda msges gradually become different. Was nice and sweet at first.. and now it's becoming so realistic. Probably cos we're together for long le so there's no such needs to send nice msges to coax me? And i also realised i've become more emo den ever. Will the day come when darling finds me too irritating and leave me for good? It's so hard to control my feelings nowadays.. and i tear easily...

I getting weaker.. weaker.. as days go by..

I have so much to say.. Yet it's hard to say..

Friday... 9/11
He's out to St. James with his colleagues tonight. I feel.... *sigh* I also duno how i shld feel. Dun want him to go but tat seemed so wrong if i were to say tat. He goes.. and i'm the one feeling terrible. Not that i want to control his social life.. But i feel weird for letting him go club without me. Guess somehow it's the same feeling when guys dislike their gf go clubbing without them. Friends advise me to ask him why i wasn't included the trip. Probably they mean that he can always bring me along. I picked up my courage and asked him. He told me there shld be times where he need to go out with his colleagues. If i were to go, there won't be similar topics to talk abt. Plus his colleages did not bring their bf/gf or wat-so-ever along. These sounded so much like excuses or.. in fact i shld call them standard answers.

I shut up after tat cos there's nth more i can say.

I told mom abt it and she was pretty shock when i told her that he went St. James. But she said we shld always talk things out. I know it doesn't sound like a serious problem.. or maybe it's not even a problem. But i know mom meant good and she dun wan to see me feeling troubled over this matter. And i can see that she wants us to stay happy and last long.

I mean what else is there much to talk abt.. He already gave me the standard answers.

*Sigh*

Tell me if it's me being over emotional or wat. It always seemed like i'm finding faults in things. I'm getting irritated with myself...

Urgh!!

*pulls hair*

I'm sick today. But i just told him i'm feeling slightly unwell.
Bad bad cough + sorethroat + feverish + runny nose
What can be worst..

Msged and told him abt it just now.
He asked me to slp early and drink more water.

Silly me~ why am i telling him that i'm not feeling well?
As if he'll rush over and see if i'm okay..

Love does not consists in gazing at each other.. but in looking together in the same direction...

2007-11-05T20:48:00.000+08:00

Sentosa!!
Family outing to Sentosa last week. Was nice..

Cam-whoring as usual.

In the new monorail..

Randoms.. Myself & Sis

Tried out the Luge.. On my way up

Tadah~ The stamp on our hand

In the cable-car.

Nice scenery, BIG papaya, Huge Beetle

Bestest news..!!
I'm going to Xiao Zhu's concert coming 1 December 2007!!!
Woo-hoo~~

Misses my Darling!!

2007-10-27T23:46:00.000+08:00

D.I.S.A.P.P.O.I.N.T.E.D

Apparently, i was suppose to go back to student care centre during my holidays to help out. So, everything was plan nicely.. which includes my finance.

Ha! Suddenly, i met up with one big joke. I accidentally saw the centre supervisor while i'm on my way to the hall to fetch my class after recess. She smiled to me and told me that there's smth she need to talk to me about. It was regarding my employment. She said the head of student care centre had a meeting with her on that day and she came up with a decision that there should not have any NON-CHRISTIANS working in the centre.

My first reaction was.. WTF!!

She even said she did her best by telling the head that she already commited to me. But it was the head's decision so there's nth she can do.
No backbone!
Boot-licker!
Disgusting old woman!

What christians.. What non-christians..
When she needed an extra hand, did she ever think about me as a non-christian?
I doubt that ever cross her mind..

I gave my fullest repect whenever they're doing their thing.
I never wanna disrespect other pple's religion.
In fact, i even go ahead and follow them.

And now..??

Haha.. What a big joke!
They gave me the worse impression of CHRISTIANITY.

Black sheeps..

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I was happy when darling suggest that we change our cable car trip from 8th Dec to 11th Dec which is on our 1st anniversary.
But reason behind was becos he has to attend company chalet.

Sigh~
I was still looking very forward to it..
I mean it's smth significent to me..
Probably guys are not sensitive towards this kind of things ba..
=(

Well, my family's going sentosa tmr. Mum wants to take cable car and Dad's gonna bring her there tmr. Sis & me will be tagging along..

I'm not feeling normal..

I'm not angry.
I'm.. I'm just.. disappointed.

Now, darling says he's not going for chalet. He'll bring me to take cable car on the 8th.
I don't feel the same as before.. He even asked me what i expect from him..

Am i being unreasonable??

Tell me please..

2007-10-25T19:16:00.000+08:00

I wish to go..

Sometimes i thought, it would be great to have clubber friends.

Unfortunately, i have less than a handful.. =(

Life is so boring..

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Life would be good if it's more than just work and eat and sleep..

Whenever darling's busy, he'll always say.. "Go and find your own programmes k?"

Sigh~ I'll tell him it's not so easy..

Reason: I don't have much friends..

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F.R.I.E.N.D.S..

What are friends??

Why do people need friends?

It's so hard to find people whom you can really call friends.

Sometimes, i would rather choose to be alone.. cos i want to leave myself out from unnecessary troubles.

2007-10-23T21:59:00.000+08:00

I want a NEW haircut!! =)

although haircut is different from that old virgin now (cos my hair has grown longer le!!). But it is getting boring.. i wonder what hairstyle is IN now. Bob is getting out of trend le. I want a NICE haircut before i go TAIWAN so that i don't like as if i'm from a ulu kampong when i walk along taiwan street. Haha..

*gonna look for Gina for her PRO consultation & haircut session*

But before that.. i will need a hair rebonding session again~

*gonna look for Janet for her cheap & good & fast hair rebonding session*

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I'm counting down to darling's event. It's coming this Sunday. 5 more days to REALRUN. I'm not excited for his event la. I'm counting down cos that means 5 more days and his working life will be back to normal. =)

Darling has been working so hard and till so late every day & night. Haven't been going shopping.. movie.. dating.. for like so so so long.. Darling promise things wil be back to normal after this event.

Yey!

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I wanna go Luo Zhi Xiang 's concert ..

I don't mind taking the cheapest seat.

Went for Lee Hom's concert previously and got the furthest seat. The view was still good. =)

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Must go fort canning & take cable car on 8 Dec. This way.. it'll be exactly 1 years frm the previous time me & darling took it together. And we can watch the SNOW Show as it's X'mas season.

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It's gonna be a busy month..

It's school's exam period.

Got markings to do.

Must enter marks into system.

Got to rush Holistic Report card.

Need to meet parents also.

I must hang on till holidays..

I hope my efforts would be paid off..

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* I miss my darling~ *

2007-10-19T15:05:00.000+08:00

Bored..

Just gonna put up some random pictures..

Gigi had a nice bath and playtime with lil Esso tiger..

Gigi was Cold...

Gigi listening to songs..

TCC drink..

Gigi waiting for Dad to come back.

2007-10-16T15:12:00.000+08:00

IT'S A VERY LONG POST..

Woke up early at 6+/7 am to make breakfast for darling..
Damn~ Woke up with a bad flu and headache.. What a good combination of illness!! All thanks to those cigrette smoke that i breathed in on Saturday. Anyway, went back to bed after making the breakfast.

I'm not trying to boast how good i treat my bf in this entry.
What i wanna say it.. It's kinda hard to get back to sleep after doing things and most probably you'l be quite awake and refresh already. I wouldn't mind doing things for my love one but sometimes i wish one can be more sensitive towards another's feelings. I'm not trying to get credits for my work! I just hope one can show appreciation by at least saying a nice 'THANK YOU!' / give a nice warm hug / a nice peck on the cheek / a sweet msg after that would be nice. It'll definately brighten =) up the person's day.. Well, i can say at least these applies to me.
OKAY~ That's for this part.

Being considerate is something i wanna point out too.
Someone specially woke up early to do breakfast for u and went back to bed right after that. The least you can do is to put in a little effort by not waking the person up as it's damn hard to sleep back AGAIN!
I would appreciate if LIGHTS ARE NOT TURNED ON and NOISE CAN BE KEPT TO THE MINIMAL..

I was so pissed until i ALMOST wanted to tell myself not to do anything for him again but i know i couldn't be so harsh to do such things as this is still considered a small matter.

I was only able to fall back to sleep at 9 am.

I'm just disappointed. It'll be nice if guys can be more sensitive & affectionate to their significant other. Let them know how much they mean to you & how much u appreaciate the effort they put in for you even if you think it's just something small. Give some encourgements..

Don't say it's all in your heart.
Sorry lor.. I can only say that they'll rot inside sooner or later if you wanna keep it any longer. Girls like to hear it 'LIVE!'.. at least for me ok?!

I may sound unreasonable and demanding.. (I know i am) But i'm just voicing out MY views.
You may or may not want to accept.

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I'm not trying to pin point at guys or anyone..
In fact, EVERYONE should show their appreciations and not take things for granted.
Applies to your significent other and family.
If you think they deserve a 'THANK YOU' then say it out!! Tell them in the face.. it doesn't hurt.
If you think they deserve a hug then do it! It's definately be a nice thing to do. You won't lose a piece of flesh right?

What's the point of keeping it in your heart. You think they can see or feel it? Even you have telepathy, maybe once or twice but it's still very hard la. It's always better to hear it and see it from the person.. More realistic.

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I may be pissed at him right now..
But i still love him as much..
I'm still willingly to make breakfast for him every morning before he goes to work.

In turn, he maybe pissed at me instead.
He may think i'm trying to find something to quarrel with him.
Sigh~!
I don't think i did anything wrong this time.
I'm not trying to worsen the situation at all..

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Haven't been out with darling ever since he got busy with his REALRUN thing. All his weekends burnt away..
I miss going out with him.

It's been ages since we went Esplanade.
Rmb ourselves sitting at the outdoor stage, listening to the LIVE! performance.
Rmb ourselves at the Merlion taking funny shots.

It's been ages since we went bowling.

I miss our weekly/fornightly movie session too..

Rmb our Genting trip.

Rmb our Zoo trip.

Rmb ourselves at Fort Canning Park.

We haven't go Birdpark yet.. =(

We didn't even have the time to develop out photos.
It's in the computer for ages.

He asked me to endure for another 2 more weeks..
I'll smile and say ok.

2007-10-15T16:39:00.000+08:00

It's PSLE Marking Week. I'm not involved in this hence, here i am.. staying at home. Zzz.. It's so boring.. I wish i could go to school and teach. At the same time, i would be paid too. Staying at home for this whole week means i'm not paid a single cent. Hais..
$325 just fly away like this..

Taiwan trip is just 2 mths away and i'm trying very hard to save every cent which i can.. I tried to skip lunch after work.. But sometimes, couldn't help it cos the gastric problem will come after me.. I would just drink a cup of milo to keep my gastric warm. I haven't been spending for very long. I refrain myself frm doing online shopping. Even have to prevent myself frm stepping to town so that i can refrain myself from buying things too.

Worst thing is.. i'll be jobless after 16 November cos it's school hoilday until next year. Means i'm still left with 1 month to earn.. and it's JUST PEANUTS.. =(

Sigh~ Sometimes, i laugh at myself.. Why do i have to do all these to myself just becos of a 7 day trip. Life would be so much easier if i'm not going to Taiwan. Aiyo......

The more i think.. the more i regret..
But too late la.. air tix bought, hotel room booked..
I'm now squeezing myself dry.. dry.. and even more dry..

I'm suppose to be looking forward to the trip. I'm sure anyone who's going oversea will be looking forward to it..

But i'm starting not to..
Cos i know things will get worst when i come back from holiday. I won't have a single cent in my bank cos all my money would be spent away over there.. =(

Thinking abt daily expenses and bills i have to settle when i come back.. I feel like crying.. Where to find money??!!

So... only go overseas when u have extra cash...!!!

Why am i not born with a silver spoon.. ( i'm not even expecting a gold spoon lor..)

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It's downslope for my career life.

I feel so lost! thinking.. what if MOE don't accept my application for teaching post AGAIN?
Am i going to stay on with relief teaching??
It's not good money doing long term relief. Doesn't benefit me much. Just feel like i'm wasting my time.

My dad's getting anxious and pissed. Waiting for his daughter to take care of him but the day doesn't seem near at all.

I'm so stressed..

I have a feeling that Dad isn't happy with me going Taiwan. He knows i've got no money and i can't afford to give him much either YET.. i'm going overseas..

Gosh! What have i done.. What a WRONG decision..
I must be crazy to agree to go overseas with my friends..
They're either rich or working full time with steady income..

WHAT AM I?!!

WHAT AM I!!??

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I.AM.POOR

I.AM.DUMB

2007-10-10T22:59:00.000+08:00

Met up with APS friends on 6 Oct, Saturday. Went to bugis to have steamboat. They are still as nice as ever. Most of them change alot. Got one even become assistant principal. Impressive! The rest are either working or studying. Had a great catch up with them. =)

Can't decide where to go.. Just nice there's a new ktv beside the steamboat restaurant. They mention it was their official launch that day and they're having promotion. Haha.. Got promotion sure won't wanna miss out one.. $12.90 for 3 hrs inclusive of a drink and titbits. Great deal right.. BUT!! It's only till 12 Oct. Don't need to spend so much yet can gather and have fun at the same.

At first we were given a room which can only fit in 7 pax. So they changed a bigger room for us. Ha! The room was GREAT.. Very nice and like so high-tech lor. They have a system in the room where we can change the lighting to normal, soft, disco etc. Out of curiosity, i press on a button "SMOKE" and really got smoke come out.. den i realised it was dry ice. C-O-O-L!

I must mention their service was super good la.. Got 1 person guard outside our room one leh.. When any of us wanna go out of the room to go toilet or what-so-ever.. They'll open the door for us. Same, when we're going back into the room.

Oh wells, people who know me, know i'm not a ktv person la.. But surprisingly, this time i enjoyed myself very much! First time lor..

We even extended another 3 hrs. We started at 8pm and ended at 2am. Gosh.. was damn tired and the peeps couldn't bear to leave the place. Haha.. I almost K.O. lor.. But was worth it la..

Took plenty of pix. But lazy to post all la.. Here's some tiny bit of it...

Myself and Wee Hung at the steamboat restaurant. Almost couldn't recognise him.. The last image of him inside my head stopped 9 years ago when he's still wearing specs and he's as short as me at that time. Wahaha..

Georgina change alot also.

This ktv was so special. It has a small little stage for us to sing up there. Damn cool!

Aha! Here's the smoke. Looks like cigrette smoke right.. But it's not la~ I pressed the wrong button and dry ice fumed out from the bottom of the mini stage.

Ta-dah~ APS co. I was looking back at my primary school class photo and comparing with what we are now.. I couldn't help and nearly laugh my head off.. We changed so so so much... Haha..

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Yey.. It's gonna be our 10th month together.. Seems like we're together for ages already leh. Haha.. But it's still great to know that we're still as good as ever.. =)

Hmm.. i admit most of the time, i've been throwing tantrums and being stubborn and unreasonable.. And also a crybaby.
But i'm really trying my best to correct all the bad stuffs away....

Darling have been super busy these few weeks cos his REALRUN event is round the corner. Even have to work till 11+pm. Poor thing.. But i must support him la.. =)
BECAUSE...
Behind a successful man stands a woman.. and tat's ME lor!

Wahaha..
Arh bo still got who.....

Love you, Hong..

2007-10-01T21:58:00.001+08:00

Was eating Mentos just now while watching tv when i saw 2 big round eyes looking at me.

It was Gigi lar.. Haha..

She gave me a arhh-i-smell-mentos kinda look. So, i decided to give her a small bite..

It was so funny.. Look at her tongue..

2007-10-01T16:16:00.000+08:00

Stayed over at darling's place ytd nite. And he drive me back home before going to work. Ran upstairs to get his contact lenses then realised i left my handphone at his house.

Gosh~ It's like my very first time forgetting all about my handphone. I guess it's due to my
sleepiness. Zzz...

*Sigh* Gotta go all the way back to TYP to meet darling later to get back my stuffs after his work. sianz.. Thinking about the journey to & fro.. *faint*

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Duno why i'm feeling extra lethargic today althought there's no work.. *shrugs* Juz feel like lying flat on my cosy bed.

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Just browsing thru some blogs.. Came across this particular blog and it makes me miss my clubbing days..
Grr..
I feel old & cranky.
My bones are stiff.
I'm out of music, beat & rhythm.
I.. I.. miss Zouk.. & Phuture.
I miss Fridays..
I miss my clubbing kakis..

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It's such a random post..
I know..
Tat explains my sianz-iness..

Outta here..

2007-09-30T17:33:00.000+08:00

YIPPIE~! =)
no work tmr... cos it's a school holiday--> CHILDREN'S DAY

BOO~! =(
no work = no money!

SIGH~! -_-"
i haven't been doing any shopping lately.. cos really short of cash.
Pay really sux to the core. How i wish i can get into training soon. I dun mind doing contract teaching next year. I just wanna get out of RT life. I want a good, fixed pay every month.
Gotta draft out my recommendation letter real~ soon for VP to vet for me.
Dun wanna live with this kinda pay for long term lor.. Can just die or eat poop.
Neither can i save nor do anything with the amount of money i have now.
School holiday is nearing.. And Taiwan trip's just round the corner..
HELP~!

I need to strike some 4D!!

2007-09-28T15:12:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY

School celebrated Children's Day this morning.
The day was filled with fun!! fun!! fun!!
Everyone's in the mood & the kids are so "high!"
Haha.. They nearly lose control lor..
But that's fine for just a day la. =)
Anyway, it's THEIR day today mah..

Had sports carnival early this morning.
Was doing my duty when suddenly i was being called up by my colleague saying one of my kids had fallen down. My first reaction was "WHAT!!?" and the next thing i knew was.. i was sprinting like hell to attend to my kid at the admin centre. Teachers were like looking at me with a "wah-what-happened?" kinda look. My poor kid.. He was sitting at the sofa crying. Wah.. My heart nearly break lor. He had scratched his both knees, an elbow & he had a small abrasion near his left eyebrow. Lucky thing was, all were superficial injuries and NOT deep cuts. The admin staffs had helped him put medication on the wounds already.
I had to coax him and kept telling him things will be fine. Had to keep talking to him to distract his attention while waiting for his mom to reach. He cried until his eyes swollen. After abt 30min, his mom finally rushed here from her workplace. I felt so sorry abt the whole thing and i'm glad the mom didn't react strongly to the accident. It was so heart-warming when the mom & the son hugged each other. *Sigh*
His mom even thanked me for attending to him immediately after the accident.

Oh well, just hope he'll have a good rest at home.

So, had the music performance after the carnival. And... out of 7 classes.. MY CLASS WON!!! Wooohoo! So happy for them lor.. =)

Den we had concert. Was just a short one thou. But teachers doing the skit was damn funny la. One of my colleague who was acting as fairy godmother wore garbage bag lor.. Haha..
I'm glad that all the kids enjoyed it cos they were smiling from ear to ear.

Went back to class to give out all the school souveniers, MY souveniers, free coco-crunch, Sharity Elephant newsletter & of cos the gift of appreaciation as promised. =)

One of them came to ask me..
"Ms Xu.. Ms Xu.. got what homework arh?"

I walked slowly to the centre of the classroom with a stern look and said..
"Okay children, your home work for the long weekend will be... NO HOMEWORK!!"

Wah.. the whole class CHEER lor~!

We even had photo-taking session. They are all soooo cute~!
I keep laughing to myself when looking at their photos.

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One of my colleague went ard the staff room giving out mini donut...

It's so nice and it's home baked.. =)

And it saved my lunch.

Yummy.. =)

2007-09-27T16:40:00.000+08:00

anyway, came across with these awww-so-sweet pictures..

the below one is slightly blur..

all like so sweeet right.. =)

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Tomorrow's Children's Day celebration..

Kinda excited about tmr's program.. Will be having sports carnival & concert.

Reminds me about my school life..

Special occasion always got concert. But mostly i'll be on stage performing my chinese dance lor.. Whahaha..

But still nice la.. Kinda miss these days..

But this time gotta experience something different. Instead of being the student.. I'm the teacher now.. Haha.. Confirm different kinda feel!

Really love seeing the children enjoying themselves. Especially when they are so happy till they laugh like there no tmr. Haha!

But still, they're so irritating when they owe me work or do corrections wrongly or anyhow go and kick people. -_- Gosh!

Aiyo.. I kinda made a few students cry today leh..

They're going to have a music competition tmr. And for my class, 14 of them were interested. So i got them all to practice for the event first. Then, the in-charge dun agree with putting all 14 into the competition cos only ard 6 kids are needed to represent a class. So inorder to be fair for other classes, i've to eliminate 7 kids. I got the whole class to vote for the best 6. When the result for the vote came out, 3 out of 7 kids cried. I feel like so damn bad la.. Made them so disappointed. Hais.. Hopefully kids can forget unhappiness fast!

*Sigh*

Will be giving them a gift of appreciation tmr too..

Tmr will be a better day.. =)

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Will anyone catch me if i fall??

2007-09-26T21:13:00.000+08:00

I haven't been so hardworking ever since i left school. I'm now studying up on music..
For a total music idiot like me.. It's so much more difficult than studying for PSLE.

I've to know all these...

I've to revise on solfege Doh, Ray, Me, Soh, Lah.. and their action handsigns!!
I've to know the names & different ways of playing different percussions!!!
All the Beats and the Notes.. Argh~ They're driving me crazy...

I feel i'm like worse than my P2 kids. Haha...

Hmm.. At least i still can sing the National Anthem & the School Song..
Eh... Gotta teach them the Children's Day song too..

U guys still remember " Semoga Bahagia"?? Hee..

>>Sama sama Maju ke hadapan,
>>Pandai cari pelagaran,
>>Jaga diri dalam kesihatan,
>>Serta sopan-santun dengan kawan-kawan....

la la la la la....

*high*

Opps..

Stayed back for Contact Time till 5+pm...
Packed up the Gooodie Bags for my class kids for Children's Day.. we'll be celebrating on Friday.
Argh~~~ Gotta sing 'Lean On Me' on stage..
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together with other teachers la.. Haha!

Anyway, went to IKEA with darling for dinner that day den shopped for awhile.
Came across with their very cheap mug. 1 for 35cents only.
Bought 28 of them and brought them home to decorate with markers & glitter glue. =)

Guess they'll love it cos they're always so fasinated by glitter glues & shiny pens.
They always wanna do their work with shiny pens.
"Miss Xu!! Miss Xu!! Can i use my shiny pens to do my correction??"
"Miss Xu!! Miss Xu!! Can i use my shiny pens to colour my drawings?"
"Miss Xu!! Miss Xu!! Can i use my shiny to decorate my art & craft?"

It'll just go on & on & on...

Oh well, just wanna give them a nice Children's Day gift. I suppose a nice hand draw mug should be fine. Anyway, i got like TONS of present from them on Teachers' Day. Wow..First time in my life i feel like a celebrity lor.. Haha!! Went home with 2 bags full.. BIG bags somemore..

Hmm... Just praying hard that they don't smash the mug when i give it to them coming Friday!!!
=)

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FEELING BLUE..

Have been feeling kinda emotional last week. Most probably due to menses, work stress, financial stress, life stress etc.
Mood hasn't been good either. Even till this week..
Just feel like there's alot of things cramping inside my mind & heart. And worst thing is i'm not too sure what are they.. Too much things.. Too complicated till i'm lost..
No one to talk to.. No one to console me.. No one to make me feel better.
Maybe friends.. But dun wanna trouble them la.. They're all so busy.
Love ones.. I duno how to tell them.. Might not get consoled.. and end up feeling even worse..
cos either they're not sensitive enough or just... just... duno how to put nicer words into my ears.

Basically.. they duno what i want..

*shrugs*

Am i demanding?
Am i nonsensical?
Am i unreasonable?

BUT,

i just hope someone can talk to me nicely and NOT end up saying me & making me feel worse.
i just hope someone can console me.
i just hope someone can say nicer things to me to make me feel better first instead of focusing on what i'm facing.
i just hope someone can understand me.
i just hope someone can have similar thoughts with me.

GIRLS ARE EMOTIONAL CREATURES!
Problems can always be solved later. It's always the emotions first.
Solve the emotions and problems will be more easily deal with after that..
It's true!
At least for me...

Hais..

Down.. down.. down..

i give up..

2007-09-23T21:47:00.000+08:00

Went Taka for Mooncake shopping with darling yesterday. Darling bought mummy a box of mooncake. =)
Went home found out there's only 3 mooncake inside the box instead of 4. They cheat our money!!

Went back Taka today with mum & dad. Blew my top infront of the counter. I know i'm mean la.. But i can't control myself~ Somemore not in tip top mood today. In the end, the person gave us back that missing mooncake plus another 2 more with egg yolk.

Ha~ That's better. That's service recovery!

Bought aunt a Starbuck Espresso Roast mooncake too.

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Eee.. no yoga this week..
*grumpy*

2007-09-20T20:38:00.000+08:00

15 September 2007 was Parents' 22nd Wedding Anniversary. Dad brought us to "AH YI" Abalone Restaurant at Turf City for dinner.
Was a happy occasion worth celebrating. =)

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Already into the 2nd week of the new term.. And exams are just around the corner.

But students are NOT even abit nervous for exams.

As for me, I'm stressed!! due to my very packed schedules.

Work's piling up..!!

And i've got not enough time.

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Went to The Concourse to get Children's Day present for my students.

Burnt a hole in my wallet! And the hole will sure get BIGGER as Children's Day gets nearer. I know i'll be tempted to buy more things for my kids. Haha..

But after walking past a customer at the shop.. I find myself so much luckier..

I'm only getting things for my own class which consists of 28 students.

Guess wat.. that customer was getting things for 6 classes!! 6 classes leh!!!

Thank God!

Haha..

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Was taking photos of Gigi when she sat on the cushioned stool.

Haha... Just look at her!! =)

Took some shots of her without her noticing..

She was sun-tanning on my kitchen floor!! Cute right?!

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Yoga lesson was good..

Darling's very supportive of me going for Yoga. =)

And i look forward to my weekly lesson.

It's so relaxing and the warming-up process makes me think about secondary school chinese dance lesson in Riverside years ago..

Arh.. I wish i could get back to my past form. I'm so LKK now. So not flexible!!

Those RUBBER BAND aunties from the Yoga class are damn amazing..

Shall practice more at home. I wanna catch up soon!

Aunties can do it..

SO CAN I!

2007-09-10T17:54:00.000+08:00

WOosh... There goes the 1 week holiday...

Welcome to...

Term 4

Day 01

Lots of holiday h/w to be marked & of cos chased after. I've got looooooooooooong list of students that forget to bring their work back. Probably left it in malaysia or thailand while on the holiday. Wonder if it would come back to me by tmr. Sigh~ Chasing after them for their work is so tiring..

And i've got tons of work to mark.. Even brought some back home if not i would nv be able to finish it in the school. Luckily some schools have the culture of not giving any homework during the weekdays and my school is one of them. Hence, giving me slightly more time to finish up my markings rather then piling them up on my table until nobody can see me from my desk. =)

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Tmr's Meet-the-Parents session.. -_-!! Have to stay back till 530pm cos the last parent comes at 520pm. I've got lots of empty slot ard 4pm-5pm!! Hais...

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Last term=busy busy busy. Have alot to teach as well as revise!!

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My phone joystick dropped out!! I only found out the joystick was missing probably after 24hrs later. Gosh~! Sent it to Nokia Care Centre just now. Aiyo~~ Can only collect back on WED. =(

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Very looking forward to end of the year. But i'm worried as the end of the term comes to an end.
Looking forward cos i'll be going for my taiwan trip with darling & frens.
Worried cos i'll be going payless for Nov & Dec as my teaching job is not for long term. I'm only paid when i go to school. Hopefully i can get to NIE after my next application to teach.

God Bless..

2007-09-06T14:24:00.000+08:00

It's half way thru my 1 week holiday alrdy.

Did some reservation for darling's birthday for the next day.
Happily welcomed Tuesday as it's my darling's BIG day. Maybe just be another normal working day for him. But to me.. it's definately NOT. I want him to have a nice birthday and really make sure he enjoyed his day or should i say.. night. Hee. Oh well, left home ard 4 plus. Made my way to Room for Dessert. Hmm.. Journey was kinda lonely la.. but told myself it was for for darling and it does really perks my journey up alittle and more looking forward to reaching that ulu place.

Collected my cake.. oh no no, it's actually mini cup cakes. Saw it and was very satisfied. =) Made me feel this long journey's worth it after all.

Cab down to marina sq. Cos dun wanna get my cupcakes squashed by the squeezing commuters in the train. Gosh.. cab fare was like 5bucks+ when i boarded it. Reason was my location in city area and during peak period.

Alright alright.. Tat's beside the whole point.

Reached Pasta de Waraku to hand the in-charge the cupcakes and went ard to shop for darling's quite-last-minute present. =) Got him his fave nike brand polo tee. Nike staff said it just arrived on the day itself. Sniff.. Shld i be smelling some kinda aeroplane smell as the tee just handed in Singapore??!! Hee..

Went back to Waraku with my tired legs and sat down at my reserved seat to write darling ad warm, heart-felt card. Shall keep the content to myself. Might be too mushy.. haha..

Darling reached shortly after i've finished writing e card. First thing i see him.. gave him a nice birthday kiss.. =)

Food ordered was nice.. Darling said he love likes the food. =)

Called upon the staff to prepare the surprise. A female staff came over.. holding the little cupcakes arranged nicely on a big plate with 1 candle lit up. =) Sang darling a birthday song. Haha.. can see darling felt kinda embarassed. Anyway, we love the cupcakes. =)

Treated darling Rataouille after dinner. Hope he enjoyed the show too cos i like it..

Home sweet home after tat..

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Woke up early this morning to make darling his fave american breakfast. Hee.. i definately can do a simple one but not sure if it's delicious. Gotta ask for darling's review. So, he had 4 sausages, 3 breakfast hams & 1 sunny- sideup, not forgetting a cup of range juice. Voila! My 爱心早餐 specially for darling only. =)

Also packed the cupcakes into a nice tupper-ware for him to bring to work in case he's hungry while working.

Send him off to work after that..

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I simply love the whole feeling of waking up early.. Preparing my love one a nice breakfast right before he goes to work. Really enjoy the whole process.. being appreaciate and seeing him happy. At least i did my little part by making his morning a bright & chirpy one. =)

Just feel warmth & love to be able to do smth for ur love one.

Of cos i still hope it's a 2 way feeling..

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Duno what happened to me but i've been rather sensitive over issue.
Darling told me things are okay between us.
Not sure why i still feel not okay. Probably i'm really too sensitive.

I guess i just need more assurance from time to time..
At the same time, i'll try to improve things by not thinking too much nonsensical stuffs.

Darling's tired from his work.. Dun wanna add extra burden to him either..

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Just bathed Gigi.. And played with her for awhile..

She's cute isn't she.. =)

if u did notice.. she knows how to look into the camera. Haha.. I think she knows i'm filming her.. =) cute little darling..

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Anyway, my post is so wordy.

Just some random photos to make the whole things more.. erm.. colourful? =)

Starting from 18th Aug.

Day of my birthday celebration. My house nicely decorated.. Credit goes to my mum, sis & darling.. =)

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Cake just reached my home.

--------------------------------------------------Darling & Gigi

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On the actual day birks from angela & ling

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Back to celebration dayThanks to all for the successful celebration.

It was a wonderul one. =)

2007-09-01T13:41:00.000+08:00

My first ever Teacher's Day Celebration.. as me being the teacher.. was a Wow! Haha.. The school's really in the mood. I've got like tons of cards and gifts from my kids. And other kids from other classes greeting me "Happy Teacher's Day" while i'm on the way to the canteen, staff room.. or anywhere in the school. It's feels.. Hmm.. G.O.O.D!!! and appreaciated. Kids telling you straight on the face that they like you and also things like "Miss Xu, can you teach me next year also?" It just feel greater than anything else. I'm really happy.. Thinking about my kids just let me forget the work load i'm having in school. All the syllabus that's damn packed.. All the markings that's still left undone and lying on my table.. Even it's only for just a day.. But i'm still so satisfied. =)

One of my class pupils made me a brownie wrapped in aluminium foil and ribboned up.. tasted quite nice although it's abit "chao ta";burnt. haha.. I even got myself an amore 1 day complimentary pass + $50 Spa voucher. Haha.. i wonder where the kid took it from.. So cute.. Still got Flowers.. Key chains.. Bookmarks.. Pen holders.. Piggybank.. Pens.. Cards.. Rochers.. Choclate bar.. etc.

Teacher's Day dinner wasn't too bad la. Just abit draggy. Supposed to start at 7pm. but cos of teachers and principals stuck in jams.. It started only like 8plus. Our tummy were making so much noise.. But whole event was nice la.. We all got to dress up in uniforms or uniform-inspried clothings. I wore army inspired clothes, army cap, "dog-tag" and scarf. Got teachers dress as construction worker, park ranger, nurses, karate kid, maid, school girl, punk rockers, air-stewardess, sailor etc. Can try to imagine la.. It's very funny. Too bad i didn't had a camera. But had some photos over at my colleague's side.

Dinner ended ard 11pm.

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Stayed at home today. Movie with usual peeps tonight. HAIRSPRAY!!
=) yeah!

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To all Teachers..

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!!!!

2007-08-27T22:14:00.000+08:00

haven't got much time or the mood to upload birthday celebration photos.
probably shall just wait till weekend.

nothing much to update.
feels lethargic.

ciaOz.

2007-08-27T00:27:00.000+08:00

I've got to rant!! rant!! rant!!!
I've really got to comment on youngters nowadays.
i am S.U.P.E.R pissed.

I must say they really take their parents for granted. We should be very sure of how things are doing within the family. Yes.. i'm talking abt financial status. Gosh! They're so damn insensitive. I'm talking abt teenagers of secondary ages. I know it's their transition period but no excuses for this issue.. I will not deny that some really care alot for their family and are really sensible. But some, totally c.m.i (cannot make it)!

Another thing abt them.. they are those "gen pi cong". Friends got what.. they also want. I will shut up if they can afford it themselves. But shame on those that keep bugging their parents on the things they want cos their friends have it even when parents said it's expensive and they can't afford it.
But parents being parents.. they love their children. I will not blame them if they finally still need to give in and buy it for them. But really SHAME la.. Worst is.. those things that can be borrowed from home, they dun wan but they still want a new one, esp things like clothings.

Can't they just spared a little thought for the family??!! Other families can afford it doesn't mean your family can afford as well. Those things may not be hundred over dollars but money is still hard-earned right? We, being children should save as much as we can for our family. We don't mind buying things that's worth the money.. But think about buying something that's only for a one-time event. Can borrow just borrow la~

Sigh~

I totally disappointed la.

Still think how sensible you can be.

Repent please.

2007-08-24T22:36:00.000+08:00

Dedicated for ANGELA dearest...

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY!!!!!

Special love & wishes to my dearest babe.
May your coming year be blessed with MORE love & joy.

went out with ling. shop ard for the whole afternoon. was great. had some catch ups. Meeting up with friends is one of the best-est thing to do. Haven't like meet up with friend for shopping, chit-chat and munchies for quite sometime already. And i simply love the feeling.

After that, ling and me went over to angela's house with a little cake and prezzie too.. Hoping to surprise her by her doorstep. But the house was dark and no one's home. =( According to the 'shen mi' someone.. she was out for dinner. So, end up stuffing the cakebox between the gaps of her door gate and stuffing the prezzie in her shoe cardboard.. hee..

Hmm.. Thought the whole thingy was kinda nice la..

And hope you like it..

Feel kinda touched right? (haha..)
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YES!
i knew it la..

=)

loves & hugs..

2007-08-20T21:20:00.000+08:00

on mc today.

had a slight headache & bodyaches before bed last night. Eventually it became worst this morning. So went on mc for a day.

wanted to go polyclinic to see doc @ 8am but i couldn't wake up & darling continued sleeping too. woke up ard 11+am. went over to woodlands polyclinic to have a look. freak!! they had 100+ patients infront of me waiting for registration. Registration only leh.. for tat, i've to wait for 30-45 min. haven't count in waiting time for consuktation & collection for medicine. Gosh~

Went back to 888 plaza's family clinic.

Other than getting medicine for my frequent bodyaches, i also consult the doc regarding the irritating corn-like thingy on my feet, located ard the big toe area. That thing's gross. Has been there for more than half a year but i thought i was some kinda corn or dried skin so i dun bother to see doc regarding it. Until i see it increase in size and it started to get abit painful. Doc concluded it was wart (not sure if i spelled it correctly).

Doc used a small op knife to slice off the outer layer of the skin cos he was afraid that the medicine couldn't penetrate thru the skin. It was rather thick so not very painful. After that, he freeze that area. Kinda numb at first but getting more & more uncomfortable as seconds fly past. After awhile more.. Wow.. P.A.I.N~
but still bearable la..

He then applied some cream on it & handiplast it. Gave me a nail polish kinda medicine to apply on the toe area until the whole thing is fully recovered. May take up to 6 weeks or even more..

After seeing doc, went back to tpy to get darling new clothings for tmr's work.. Accompanied him for dinner den went back home. Darling went to bishan for mj. But will be back tonight. =)

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Before i forget..

Special thanks to the following people!!

My family + darling for making the whole celebration a success.
Vanessa, Roger & Joanna for coming over early to help out in the preparation.
Roger & Joanna again for helping me cut & give out the cake.
Ye Xing for his super delicious satay.
Darling's mummy for her stools & agar-agar.
Dearest meili & bf for coming over despite after late late projects.

Sincerely thank ALL guests for attending my celebration.
Very happy & touched that almost all family and friends that i've invited turned up.
Also wanna thank people like brianna, dingli & huikai. At least you've let me know that something caught up at your side hence not coming over. Appreaciated. =)

Shall upload photos taken on 18th Aug after my actual birthday itself. I should be having another small small celebration with darling & my own family ba~

=)

2007-08-17T13:57:00.000+08:00

PSLE Oral's finally over.. yeah~ Have been doing staircase duty for the past 2 days. Pull out a desk and a chair frm a classroom and sat near the classroom so the students after their exams will mark their attendance before they leave the school. It was damn boring. Session 1 wasn't that bad as it's early in the morning. We had a break at ard 930am. So went to had some food at the pantry area. And everyone knows that after food, you'll tend to be very sleepy due to the food digestion. Session 2 was hell. I kept dozing off. Trying very hard to eat sweets and drink water. I even start to sing to myself very softly. I know that's abit crazy but i guess that's the only way i can keep myself awake. It's even more challenging when the weather is cooling after the rain.. Gosh~ BUT! I still made it thru.

Yippie.. tml's weekend and finally!! i can rest..

Anyway, was feeling kinda down these few days. But i'm glad v was there. Had a nice chat with her ytd night. Wonder how long ago was the last time we chat on phone for a few hours. Have not been catching up with her much but ytd's phone talk was a great one. It's so much like secondary school time. And i miss the good and the bad we've gone through..

Talking abt friends.. *sigh*

As we grow up under different environment especially after school days, we tend to change. I'm not saying everyone. I mean generally human change after a period of time. Friends come and go.. Even very good ones, they may tend to drift away due to new phase of life such as knowing newer people at the outside world when working or further study, having new gf/bf, marriage etc. But that does not apply to everyone. Well, there's always some lucky people out there who have their good friend/friends around them from young till old to go through happiness & hardship together. And i can say that's a gift from God.

Praise God!

i'm glad that some friends that i have are still here even after we've been thru some bad times & experience together, we're still good thou not as good as before but that's okay.
Cherish!

Was talking to v abt myself too. I know myself too well, and she knows me well too. I'm always a straight-forward person. I guess there's pros & cons to this kind of personality. Depending how u see it, i guess.
For me, i have friends who are straight-forward too. But i find no reason to feel offended to the things they say. Cos in a way, i feel those words are true words. True words are always not nice to hear.
v suggested that i can change my choice of words. I know that should be the way and i did try. But sometimes it's too hard for certain things to sound specially nice. I feel not natural and it's damn tiring la.
So if you want the true words from me then you must be able to accept what i'm going to say and be ready to hear words that aren't so nice to the ears.
But at the same time, i'll still do my part by trying to change my way of speech.

One thing to note! Being straight-forward is not equals to Being sarcastic.

Normally what i blog down will be my true thoughts. So people around tend to feel offended after reading. Even when the entry is not talking about them. Then i guess, my blog's not suitable for their eyes. Right?

back to friendship.
What exactly is the defination of GOOD FRIENDS?

i know it's a long post.. Just feeling abit emo~

PMS

2007-08-13T20:00:00.000+08:00

Had a really long holiday this week. All the way from Wednesday half day to Sunday. Hoooo! But i guess that's the only plus point for working in a school; longer and more holidays than most jobs. Haha..
Anyway, the last day of my long weekend was just rotting at home. Morning part was dim sum breakfast at Thomson. Also went there to get gigi's dry food and snacks.
Over to darling's house to get the chairs for my birthday celebration. Got no chairs at my house.
On the way home was fun. Dad drove over to Seletar. Saw lotsa monkeys..
There were more further down by the road side. Was kinda cute..
Some were resting and playing on the grasspatch. Seem to be enjoying themselves very much.. Cuuuteee.

Anyway, felt abit lethargic during work after the looong weekend. The first day of my work after the weekend was bombarded with all kinds of thingy. Early in the morning i was called to do relief for my 1st two period. If not, i'd have 5 periods free before i start my lesson. Sianz..

Nvm abt that.

The teacher of that class came to appraoch me again to ask me a favour. She wanted me to take over her P5 Maths Remedial class after school. I was like -_-". But was kinda difficult to reject her either so i agreed to help.

After remedial, went to attend meeting for coming PSLE oral taking place on Thursday & Friday. Even more sianz. I thought i wasn't invovled and maybe another loong weekend is awaiting for me. But all my dreams shattered. I was the only relief teacher involved. And i got Staircase duty on both days. I think i'll be standing by the staircase for the few hrs. Zzz..

Really Monday Blues leh..

Thought i could go home to slp after school. And so unexpectedly, i kenah so many last minute things.

Yawnz... Will tmr be a better day?!

2007-08-10T12:23:00.000+08:00

Caught up with hf at CWP on Wed after my work.
Was a good catch-up.

Feeling abit disappointed with an issue.. =(

Anyway, supposed to be a half-day work; till 10am, due to school's National Day Celebration . But i stayed till 130pm to get a full day pay. I think that's a good move cos all i need to do from 10am to 130pm is to slack in the staff room to get $65. =)

Den went for night movie; Rush Hour 3 with the usual peeps. Before that was just chilling out at Crown Prince Starbucks for chit chat and discussion on our coming Taiwan trip while waiting for the rest to reach. Very looking forward to our trip. Kim, Joanna & of cos the BFs will be going and i'm really glad! Starting to get very comfortable with this bunch of friends. =)

Watched NDP at home ytd. Love the parade. They're just so cool. And of cos the FIREWORKS. Boom-Boom-Boom!! I think it's damn beautiful. Wanted to watch it at fullerton but we tot it would be hard to get home after that due to the traffic so in the end we droppped the idea. But we'll be going to watch fireworks either coming Saturday or next Saturday.

Hmm.. wonder what movies is up recently. Feel like watching movies tonight but duno if there're any usual meeting-ups tonight anot. Shall wait for phone calls.

Anyway, need to get to Waterloo St to settle the cake thing later. Email them so long ago and they still have not reply. Call also can't get thru. Wat good customer service they have.. Maybe they've closed down?! Nooo...

2007-08-07T16:48:00.000+08:00

Just came back from school. Had Learning Journey with students today. Went to Kid's Kampong at Pasir Ris Farmway. Was happily chatting with half of my students on the bus. They were all so excited. Anyway, another half of my class's in another bus. They're all split up. And finally, we reached the Kid's Kampong.

But here comes the bad news...
A parent volunteer reported to me that a girl from my class fell down and cut her chin after she alighted her bus. I went to take a look and saw a very deep cut below her chin. It wasn't bleeding like hell but it's really deep and the wound is opened. Kinda like split into two, up-down. Aiya, also duno how to describe la..

I called her mum to inform and according to school procedures, i must bring her to see doctor but the parent must decide where. So, eventually her mum decided that i bring her over to Changi Hospital.

I got no choice but to leave the rest of my students with the parent volunteer and other teachers and proceed on to bringing my student to the hospital to meet her mum. Met the mum after awhile and went on to consult the doctor.

Doctor said she must get some stitches cos it had split open. If dun stitch, she will end up with a very big and ugly scar. She was scared but still agreed to do the stitches. TWO stitches.

Anyway, everything went smoothly. She didn't cry during the stitch. Brave girl!
*a round of applause*

Sent her and her mum home. Only reached back school ard 1pm. Took cab and worst thing was.. I can't claim!! Grr.. cos everything was an ACCIDENT. Gosh! But i happened during my working hours lor.. Wth..
Tend my class for awhile and dismiss them at 1.30pm.

Sigh~ Need to do report. Hence only can go back home ard 4+pm. Haven even do my markings but i'm now damn tired la. Rush here and there for the whole day without eating. Unable to join in the fun at Kid's Kampong too. So........ "LUCKY"!

Well, at least i learnt & experience something new.. (comforting myself).

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Upon all these..
Something to comment on..

Here's the senario.
If someone were to ask you if you like hypocrites and sarcastic people, i think alot of you would say you won't like it either. But some people around are behaving like one.
Really la.. To everyone.. if you want to say people.. Remember to take a look at yourself first before saying anything.. Cos i think that should the way first.

RIGHT??

If anyone wanna say something. Tell him/her straight onto the face. Don't need to turn one big round to shoot back at him/her. Not tiring meh..?

Anyway, for all's information.. Dun assume i'm talking abt someone in particular.
Cos i'm NOT!
And DON'T be so sensitive.
Don't want anymore misunderstandings already.
It's damn tiring la..

End of my rant...
Felt much better.
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Something to look forward to..

HAHA!!
Half day work tml..

Happy National Day, Singapore..!!

2007-08-05T16:59:00.000+08:00

relaxing at home with darling.

came across http://www.blogthings.com/, so went to try it out for fun.. haha..

Here's one of it..

Your IQ Is 105

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average

Your Verbal Intelligence is Above Average

Your Mathematical Intelligence is Exceptional

Your General Knowledge is Above Average

A Quick and Dirty IQ Test

Haha.. Seems like i'm not logical enough.. Opps!

2007-08-03T22:02:00.001+08:00

Another tiring day. But at least i've pass through the day!!

Same like every other days. Rushing through syllabus and making sure my students know what they're doing. Great sense of achievement comes when i'm marked their work. FULL MARK means they understand what i explained in class.

Teaching is the job if u love the feel of great achievement and not to forget love for children. Especially when you're a part the children's growing up stage. And i'm sure it's influential too..

Anyway, school ended 1pm today but i stayed till like 430pm to finish up the markings. Oh wells, i don't mind staying back in school. Cos next week i'll doing classroom teaching for only 1 day which is on Monday. The whole of Tuesday will be out for excursion. The whole of Wednesday will be National Day celebration. Thurday and Friday will be School Holiday. And nevertheless, Saturday and Sunday are weekends.

Woohoo.. What a good life!
I simply love it.

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Going movie with darling, joanna & roger later. A few more might be going too.
And hair trim tomorrow with darling over at Gina's. =)

Oh yes.. Not forgetting..
With regards to previous post and future posts.

A simple note to all that read my blog.
Everyone's free to visit my site. No obligations.

But please take not that i have the right to blog whatever i want in here.

Just want to make myself clear that i'm NOT here to pin-point on anyone. I blog for leisure.

I'm straight-forward. I always speak what's on my mind.
Everyone knows it.
If you're going to take whatever i said in this blog seriously and be affected by it, there's nothing i can do.

Things that you see here.. can be read and be forgotten.
Cos it's only for leisure.

I would not be blogging here if i have to spare a thought for each and every people on what they think and feel after reading my entries. I speak what i feel at that very moment.

And just in case more people are affected.. I've removed the entry.
It shall be the last time i removed entries from my blog.

Once again, this entry is meant for ALL.

Thanks!!

CiaOz.
Have a great weekend.. =0)

2007-08-01T18:40:00.000+08:00

Tiring day.

Tml's the day.
And i'm excited.
The kids told me that they're afraid that they're not good enough for tml's poem recitation competition cos they say it's like singing Twinkle Twinkle Little Star.

It's actually an extended version of Twinkle Twinkle Little Star.
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THE STAR

Twinkle, twinkle, little star,
How I wonder what you are!
Up above the world so high,
Like a diamond in the sky.

When the blazing sun is gone,
When there’s nothing to shine upon,
Then you show your tiny light,
Twinkle, twinkle, all the night!

Then the traveler in the dark,
Thank you for your tiny spark,
He could not see which way to go,
If you did not twinkle so!

In the dark blue sky you keep,
And often through my curtains peep.
For you never shut your eyes,
Till the sun is in the sky!

As your bright and tiny spark,
Lights the traveler in the dark.
Though I know not what you are,
Twinkle, twinkle, little star!
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I thought it was pretty good.
If i were to put myself in their shoes. I wouldn't find it easy..
I'm glad tat some of them are able to memorise the whole poem plus actions.
Very impressive for an 8 year old kid.

Well, hope they dun have stage fright. If not, i also duno what to do..

Haha.

Anyway, school syllabus is moving so fast until i can't catch up. Haven even finish current worksheets with them.. And more are coming. Guess i would really be behind time cos month of August got alot of activities going on. Just talking abt next week, 4 days gone due to School excursion + National Day Celebration + 2 days School holiday.
Sigh~ so rush..

I go too fast and the kids can't understand. I go too slow and i'm behind syllabus.
Help!
And i'm an untrained teacher..
*faint*

2007-07-31T16:14:00.000+08:00

Kind of sick & tired of my old blogskin. On mc today so tot of doing some changes to it.
Turns out fine. i think.. =0) haha..

I'm not lazy today.. so might as well upload some pix taken on ling's birthday. =)
Missed the lunch-out.
But i'm glad i was able to turn up for the chalet!

The HAPPY 3 FRIENDS.

the Girlies.

the.. erm.. BFs??

the MACHO ones..

the HUNGRY ones..

the VERY HAPPY ones..

And welcome to the classic faces..

Ta-Dah~~!!!

2007-07-30T23:00:00.000+08:00

Eventually, i still went to school today with my 'sexy' voice. It was kinda auto. I didn't drag myself up.. so i tot i just go ahead. I like this kinda feeling whereby u dun drag urself up from bed. In fact, i quite look forward to work everyday.

But today was abit messy in class. Scolded a few kids tat dun listen to my instructions and keep doing their own things. I'm like shouting but it doesn't seemed to work like any other days. Guess it's my quality of voice. Quite scattered. So they can't hear well too. I can't even hear myself well.

Oh wells, left school ard 4.30pm. Gotta finish some markings, of not i'll be very busy when i go back to school on Wed. Oh yes, did i mention tat i'll be on MC tml? Hee.. i tot my voicebox need a rest. So i might as well use up my MC which i got it on Saturday. It was supposed to be a 3-day MC. From Sunday to Tuesday. But i'll be worried if i didn't settle things in school before going on MC. Tat's why i insist on going back today.

MC tml, so i've got to cancel my remedial class as well. I have to apologise to my 8 lovely students. By teacher really can't teach well without getting my voice back. Sry~!

Anyway, tat means i can kinda stay up late tonight. Yippie. Play with my baby PSP before going to back. Hubby suggest that i finish up my LOTR 2. Hmm.. i shall see how. Slightly reluctant cos the show's very long~~~

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Anyway, i hope sis will change her mind regarding her studies. Hope she will seek my advice. It'll only do her good.

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Gosh~ I've been so busy ever since i started work in school. My Harry Potter 6 has been staying stagnant in my cupboard for quite sometime. It's growing webs.. Haha.. Shall fins time to read it soon.. real soon!!

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Talking abt school.
My kids need to perform on Thursday. They've gotta recite a piece of children's poem as part of 'Speak Good English Week'. I've found a piece called The Star. Abit of the extended version of Twinkle Twinkle Little Star. Thought that was kinda cute. Well, i thought of some actions to go with the poem. So, they'll have to memorise the actions and the poem. It's a level competition. Not expecting too much as it's my first time doing such things. But just hope it'll turn out fine. Abit excited + nervous. Haha.. Wish US luck~!

2007-07-30T00:09:00.000+08:00

i totally lost my voice after a few days of teaching.. ask angela, ling and darling.. i sounded sexy afew days ago. But i can't even voice out a word ytd. I'm doomed. How am i going to school tml like tat. Doc said i strain my voice box too much. It's swollen and infected. Gosh~

Feel so sianz now. i feel like a ya ba.. can only whisper and not many people understand what i'm saying. =(

Doc gave me a 3 days mc starting from Sunday. By right i'm not supposed to go to school tml and the day after but... i'm worried tat my class will be behind time and i've got things to settle too.. Oh my.. How.. i can't decide whether i shld go anot...

These few days having headaches on and off. It's irritating..

Anyway, Ling celebrated her 21st on Friday. I couldn't attend lunch in the afternoon cos i've got meeting after school from 2pm to ard 6pm. Damn tired right after tat. But i managed to go to the chalet at night. Was fun thou it's just a small celebration. Hope she enjoyed herself.

I'm glad tat we're still friends after wat happened long long long ago.
A friend which i enjoy being with.
A friend which i'll never forget.

Thank God for bringing and keeping this friend ard me.

Anyway, it's past midnight already. But i still wanna say..

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TO LING~!
May HAPPINESS Be With You Always..
=)

2007-07-25T20:06:00.000+08:00

My very first day taking my class alone. I can stay i wasn't nervous at all cos i know i can deal with the children. Have been observing them for the past few days when i sit in with the previous teacher. I even know which few can be my good helper too. And of cos which few can be slightly difficult to deal with. Hopefully everything's under control.

I must say this class is CUTE.. =) Starting to like them already.
But kids have Sooo... many questions.. Hmm.. like 1 million of them lor.. Haha..

First period was PE. Was pretty fun playing ard with them..

Later on was just eng and maths lesson.

I'm now looking for info on sharks cos was goign thru a worksheet with them related to Sharks. Too bad i don't have a printer, if not i'll print the pictures out for them too see..

Alright, off to plan coming lesson le.

Shall be back to update more..

ciaoZ

2007-07-24T22:56:00.000+08:00

arh.. so tired. starting to take over class on monday. wasn't so bad in class cos i'm just sitting in with the previous teacher. Will officially start tmr.

The tiring and stressful part was when the teacher shoot all the info to me. Wah.. S-T-R-E-S-S. need to absorb so much things at one time, it's really not easy.

Well, i guess everyone's most difficult part was the beginning phrase. Whereby you have to catch up to be on the same pace as everyone one else. Now i'm not even half bucket full.

Planning of lessons is already a big headache. And i got so much to teach. ENGLISH, MATHEMATICS, HEALTH ED, MUSIC, PE, SOCIAL STUDIES. Zzzz... So scared that i might teach wrong things or lag behind. But of cos i'll seek darling's advice as to be humble enough to ask colleages for help. And of cos be-friend with pple and be friendly too..

Tmr will be my first day on my own. Hopefully everything will be smooth as how i've planned. And students hopefully they'll cooperate too. I'm trying to stay close to the previous teacher's teaching style. Hmm.. not too hard to follow and not too far from my own style. Well, i shall work, teach, learn and adjust at the same time. Wish me luck!! *cross fingers*

Sad thing is, alot of the younger teachers which i'm more familiar with had left for NIE training. Most left today.. Gosh. And it's my first day tmr. Now left with all the old birds ard the school. Hopefully they're friendly and approachable ba..

Very excited and nervous at the same time..

Alright alright.. i'm not going to keep remninding myself that i'm nervous. I must be cool.

Cool

Cool

Cool

Okie Dokie.. I shall being praying hard for myself.

I hope i'm a good teacher too.. =)

2007-07-18T14:33:00.000+08:00

good news!

i'm starting full time relief on monday. Vice principal called me this morning. yeah!

so Friday would be my last day in child care centre. would miss the kids badly. Although i'll be seeing them almost everyday in sch, but my position will be different. Can't be as close as i am to them now. Sigh~ But still.. i'll need to move on.. =)

yuppie.. anyway, great! i'm sick now! =( stupid flu and cough is killing me. damn irritating.. my nose's like a tap now.. spoilt one somemore! keep dripping water la.. need to stuff tissue paper to stop the water flowing.. haha..

anyway, i'm on leave today. =) dun wanna go work with super runny nose. and pass all the germs to the kiddies when i sneeze..

Ahh-choo! Opps.. i sneeze again..

wanna upload some kukup photos here but darling haven pass me the photos la.. ALL the photos with him lor..

sianz leh.. nowadays.. friends all lazy to update blog.. got nth much to read.. make me seemed like oh-i'm-so-free!! GRR..

alrights. off i go..

2007-07-16T22:57:00.000+08:00

alrights, came back from kukup. One word.. FUN~ i think it's really the people whom u go with. put fireworks with darling. was... hmm.. sweeet!! =) very happy! the girlfriends are all nice too..

but came back with sorethroat and runny nose.. sob sob.. now i've got the feeling of getting ill real soon.. sigh~ not sure if i'll be able to go work tmr. =(

okie.. lazy now.. but shall upload some kukup photos one of these days..

it's a short entry.. i know. but i'm feeling sick. and i keep wanting to puke.

urgh~ shall stop here.

ciaOz..

2007-07-13T00:39:00.000+08:00

Darling just gave me my bday prezzie in advance. It was wonderful.. And i love it to bits. Somemore it's the colour tat i want! Hmm.. I so happy to receive it and i can say i just can't stop smiling inside me.. Eh, I'm still smiling now la. =) Reason why i got it early cos darling say i can bring it to kukup to use it with others. =) Not gonna say wat it is until my birthday comes... hee! hee!

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Now headache, duno wat to get for ling's birthday. And it's getting near...

Angela!!

Help..!!

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Dinner with darling's friends tml. It would be a nice one, i noe.. Just thinking wat to wear tmr.. Haha.. Same old habit. Sometime i wish i was a guy.. So tat i dun need to think too abt my dress code since every guy always tend to wear similarly...

Oh wells, whatever..

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Missing my darling now..

Aww.. I just miss him each and every moment.. =)

Tat's just me.

2007-07-12T00:04:00.000+08:00

11 July 2007

Happy 7th Monthiversary to my dearest lao gong.. Nth special thru-out the day as we know everyday will be as special as anyday as long as i'm with him. Time really flies. Flashing back to the day when i first seen darling during Starhub training at Haw Par. Never knew this guy would become part of my life.. Thinking back, i'm actually glad to be in Starhub although the work there sux. I guess God has his way.. =) And i truely thank God for bringing such a good guy into my life.

Alright, shall leave the mushy part off now.

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Oh! Did i mention i actually went Bugis to shop last Friday with darling. Hee.. was a great harvest. spend like less than $60 and i bought 3 items. Good deal i suppose. Finally got myself a nice grey skinny which i always wanted, got a pair of white heels at good bargain and of cos my black quarter boho skirt for only $12.

I'll be looking out for more plain coloured tank tops & spag strips tops to match my skirts cos i'll be going back there to get more different variety colour of that kinda skirt. Hopefully i'll be able to get one which has different colour tone just like this one below...

Hmm.. Would need some boho belts to go with it too. =) Yippie..

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Yeps.. Would be leaving for Kukup on Saturday morning. Can't wait it to come. Especially having so many friends and not forgetting my darling to go together. Yeah~! Super looking forward to putting fireworks.. Haha.. I'm a city kid. Haven't put a firework by myself before.. =) Sry for the "sua gu-ness".

2007-07-09T00:08:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling bad at something which i've just done.

I threw tantrum at darling when i was pissed off. It's just a small thing, i know. But i feel suffocated when he doesn't seemed to give me a chance to rant.

What done is done, I'm just wanna apologise.

I'm sorry.

2007-07-08T23:18:00.000+08:00

Darling just went home. hopefully i'll be able to meet him tml. I wish i can meet him everyday possible. cos i'm always so happy and looking forward to see him. =)

Asked mum when he can start staying over at our place and make some compromise regarding the 49 days thingy. and guess wat?! she blame me cos she didn't strike lottery. i just purely asked her. and definately in a very nice tone. wat did i get from her? Hey.. we haven't been striking lottery for very long time le. Wat a good excuse for rejecting my request.. And pleasssse lor.. She obviously blaming me for causing her suay-ness..

Not fair & Bull-shit.

oh well, enough of saddism..

Anyway, went over to Fang's advanced 21st birthday celebration. Went over early to help her do up the place alittle. Crowd was okay. Food was nice. Hope she enjoyed herself. =)

I hope my 21st will be a good one too~

YEAH~!! We'll be going JB-Kukup coming Saturday together with darling's bunch of friends. I'm so looking forward to it. Darling says he's gonna give me a crash course for mahjong so tat i can join him next time, next time & next next time.. haha. Guess there'll be lotsa smacking of hands and feets since ever since Kim bought tat smacking thingy back from taiwan. All seemed to be super saddists. Loves pain.. Haha. Look at the way they enjoyed getting smacked from just playing a game. Made me faint-hearted. Haha. Remembered how we played Jenga. It's gonna be a fun trip thou it's just 2D1N.

Alright.. Enough of everything.

ciaOz

2007-07-06T01:39:00.000+08:00

It's just gonna be a very random post. Feel kinda stony at this late hour, but not sure why i'm still quite awake. Was surfing randomly online. Come across a handbag which i think was super nice.. hmm.. at least to me la.. Haha..

I wonder how much this Ferragamo bag cost.. Gonna look out for it one of these days. I just simply love it. Look kinda classy.. but NICE~

Saw this DKNY purse too.. abt US$95.

NICE~! Need a new wallet anyway.. Shall look out for it hen i'm in town.. =)

Woo.. I'm really in shopping mood now.. Haha.. See things i like and my hands start getting itchy.. Help!

anyway.. enough of the itchy hands *piak* OUCH! I just hit my own hands. NITES!

2007-07-03T23:16:00.000+08:00

Had great dinner over at Hyatt ytd. The food at Pete's Place were super nice. Had their cod fillet & steak. These were the nicest food i had so far.. And i ate the nicest tiramisu ever.. So Happy~!

Bought some tonix for Dad for his birthday. See him working so late almost every night, so i guess these shld be the best choice as present for him.

All thnx to Hong.. everything's fine now.

Darling, I really appreaciate what you've done for me.

Thank you so much.. =)

I've done what i've supposed to do as promised.

And to keep things short & sweet, that's all for today.. =)

CiaOz..

2007-07-02T18:11:00.000+08:00

Getting prepared to go for dinner at The Grand Hyatt later. darling reserved a place over there this afternoon. We had $100 hyatt voucher so we intend to spend it on food. =) room for a night is way too expensive. Other than that, i think there's nth much for us to spend there already. It's not a shopping mall anyway. =) Having italian food later.. yeah!

gigi's looking at me now.
awww.. how cute~~!!!

2007-07-01T23:21:00.000+08:00

-30th june-
went to the singapore stadium with Hong and friends for the stadium's ever last soccer match before it's being demolished.
SINGAPORE vs AUSTRALIA.. Australia won 3-0.
Went off right after the match. We didn't stay for the LIGHTS-OUT event at 10pm.
Went over to Geylang for dim sum at 126.

After dinner, drove to a cafe to chill-out.. Hmm, i think more of freak-out!! Haha.. One of our friend brought Jenga. And i guess we had the world's highest Jenga before everything topples.. It was fun. Kim bought a "thingy" from taiwan which is used for smacking pple's feet. The person who topples the Jenga will get their palm smacked!! It just so fun.. =) Also played the "dice" game. Had my palm smackd once thou. Haha..

Stayed there till like 2+am but luckily Hong drove on that day. Enjoyed myself very much. These bunch of pple always got the weirdest game on mind. But fun la!!

Slept over at Hong's place ytd. Was niceeee.. thou abit stuffy when it comes to the middle of the night. I was almost squashed to death by my dearest Hong. Haha.. But i still love it. Wahaha..

Woke up only ard 12 noon. Had brunch at tpy market. Went back home to rot abit before heading to town to shop abit.

I think town's getting more and more boring.. I'm gonna find something meaningful to do with Hong instead of shopping next time.
Ha! I had some in mind...

1. Discovery Centre
2. Catch crab
3. Sentosa
4. Fly kite
5. Picnic

i guess that shld do! =) Shall tell Hong abt it later..

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Yeah!
Youth Day tml!
No work!
But no money also..
Haha...
Actually wanna meet up with fang. But she had gone to m'sia le.. =( only be back on wed.
oh wells.. Den i'll see what i can do tml in the afternoon cos dun feel like staying at home.

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Wanna faster meet Hong tml evening after his work. I'm gonna pick him up from work. Shall meet him at Gombak den. =)

Hong dun wan me to be his sticker.. He wans me to be his super glue.. =) I dun wan~! I wanna be his rifle.. =)

2007-06-26T22:24:00.000+08:00

No programmes today. Staying at home. Kinda bored now.
Thinking of my dear Hong while he's on his way home.

Thinking whether he will eat his dinner later or anot.
Thinking whether he is driving home safely or not.
Thinking whether he had enjoyed his game just now or not.
Thinking whether he is tired or not.

Thinking about everything that relates to him.

Feelings have become stronger & stronger as days goes by..
Just wanna dedicate something for my special HIM..

Every moment, I'm falling in love with you over and over again.
Every moment, you brightened up my world even when i'm just thinking about you.
I can't imagine life without you now, that you are already a part of my life.
I want to be your SOMEBODY someday.. To be the one to share your name and everything else that is related to you.

Darling, I have never felt this way before..
Completeness.
Full of love.

I am always thinking of you.
You are everything I ever dreamt of.

There just so many things that i love about you..

+ How caring & understanding you are

+ The way you love me

+ Your ability to cheer me up

+ Your sense of humour

+ The way you put me first (exclude mum & dad!!)

+ Your acceptance of me

+ You're there for me

+ Your honesty towards me

+ You! As my love, my soulmate and my best friend(exclude huifang)

+ The way you say you love me

+ The way you hug and kiss me till my heart MELTS..

+ Your trademark SMILE

+ The way you look into my eyes

+ The way you make me feel that i'm the most special & cherished person in the world

+ EVERYTHING!!

Through the bad times and good, I will love you and be there for you.
I am going to love you always and I want to be yours always.
I am so lucky to have you there for me.
We went through quarrels and troubles. I've never realized that OUR LOVE could be this strong.
BUT it really is...

MY love, OUR love can conquer anything...
And we definately know what we are doing..

I will love you and help us through problems that we're going to encounter and face in the near future.

I love you, Hong.

2007-06-25T12:39:00.000+08:00

Haven't been updating my blog so quite sometime. Either i've been abit busy or i haven't had the chance to update. I admit i came back home pretty late these few days. But even on days which i came home not-so-late, there's always sitting infront of the comp till late. I don't wanna say anything and i'm sick-and-tired of saying something, so i just wanna see that person know how to 自动 or not.
Well, take this chance to blog before going off to scc as no one's is using..

Last Friday, went over to Brianna's house for her 21st birthday celebration. Hmm.. i can only say it's simple. Just some eating, chit-chat and talk crap as usual, took photos etc. But simple doesn't mean no good. I guess what matter most is who are there to be with you.. Left quite early as most peeps are really tired after the whole day's work.
Haha.. sry that i've been abit stony most of the time.

Thanks Darling for sending me and some of my friends home despite being tired..
THANK YOU and you're the BEST!! :)

So, for the past few days.. i've been spending quality time with Hong.. Always very happy when i'm with him and i think that the most important part of a relationship too. But i do know i'm abit too dependent on him.. He's just like my comfort zone. Whenever if he leaves me for awhile, i'll start to feel uncomfortable. I guess it's not too good a thing.. But i can't help it. :( sigh~

feels abit lethargic every start of a week. esp Monday (monday blues i think). somemore it's end of school holiday. everything's back to it's seriousness. no more fun.. and i should be called back soon for f/t relief anytime this week. time flies.. i'm starting to feel scared.. nervous. i'm too used to my comfy zone. goosebumps are everywhere now~ hais.. :(

alright i guess i'll end here..
i'll take a step at a time..not to think too far at one go. it'll only scare myself.
i shall look forward to meeting Hong tonight after work.. at 6.30pm.. just another 5.5hrs to go..

Off to SCC..

bye..

2007-06-18T00:46:00.000+08:00

good news.

after moe reject my application for teaching position, i've been looking desperately for a job after since. after a few weeks.. a miracle happened!!

school's vice principal offered me a job as a full time relief teacher. partially also thanks to aunty anne. she actually mention me infront of the vice principal. so, VP was looking for teacher to take over a class cos their form teacher's resigning. It'll be an open post and she tot i'm a suitable candidate to fill in this gap so went ahead to approach me. Was very happy. VP said she'll help me write a recommandation letter after a period of time so tat with that letter from the school, i''ll able to apply for a teaching post again. And i was told tat with the letter, the chance of getting a teaching post with be higher thou said not 100% la. =)

Other than tat, another good thing is...
Now!! i can stop looking for a job for the time being.

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went for father's day dinner today. dad brought us to Turf City's Ah Yi Bao Yu Restaurant..
Food was damn nice.
Had a great dinner.

Thank You Dad!!and Happy Father's Day to u..
i know it kinda over..
but to me, every day's a Father's Day cos we've got a good family bonding..

Sigh~ Still thinking wat to get for brianna.. shang nao jing..

Alright, gonna slp le..
ciaOz..

2007-06-13T22:48:00.000+08:00

went to TMC's 2nd interview on Monday. was -_-!!. the personnel asked the same thing her colleagues had asked me during the 1st interview. Oh wells..

The next day, i received a call from the HR, offering me the position. I was being offered 1.4k. but i was kinda reluctant to accept it due to a few areas. After deducting cpf, i'll only be left with abt 1.1k. monthly i've to give 400 bucks to my parents and i wun be left with much. this job needs me to commitment at least 12mths. if i break my commitment, i'll need to pay back company 2 mths' pay which is 2.8k. wth~ i mean nobody knows how the job and the pple in there are like, so it's kinda risky to commit with the company. Other than tat, it's shift work and i've to work on alternate Saturdays.

So, do u think 1.4k is worth it upon so much expectation..

Well, i think it's not worth it. So, i rejected the compnay the next day.

Now i'm still looking out for a job. Hong seemed to be doing well and i find his job pretty interesting. Event coordinator. I want smth like tat too.. I believe can learn alot of things from this field. But it's really hard to get this kinda job when you lack of related experiences. Most event company won't want unexperienced candidates. He asked to to keep on looking, but it seems like after helping him send out his current job, other event related position seem to disappear. I dun really find any event coordinator/assistant exec kinda job.. Not say dun have la.. But MOSTLY want pple with a few years of experiences.

Sigh~ I'm getting restless.

Alright, enough of that..

On that same day was OUR 6th monthiversary.. I was so so happy.. Hong brought me to Suntec to eat the mini steamboat. Was pretty nice. Their ingredients are fresh.. =) Enjoyed myself very much. =) Thanks darling!!!

Anyway, met up with Fang just now for dinner.. Haven seen her as she was away for holiday and now she's BACK! Met up, makan and did some catch-ups. Was nice~ Would really wanna meet her up more often la.
And really wanna thank her for the "tu chan"and her little "special" gift she brought back for me. Haha.. Thanks once again!!!

And now.. I thinking wat to get for banana's 21st bday. Grr.. so "fan nao".. Haha.. Looking forward to 23rd June. Have not met alot of the gang for duno how long.. Her birthday would be a great chance for a gathering as well. Hope alot can make it. =)

Hmm.. haven got any chance to take a picture of my new hair-do. Haha.. It's not very short thou(according to fang) but comparing to my previous hair lengths.. I pretty short already. Simple hair cut which i like it very much. Not too "Bob". Just nice.. i think~! =)

alright.. gonna Zzz..

ciaOz..

2007-06-10T00:18:00.000+08:00

haven't been blogging for quite sometime. was pretty down for a period of time due to the outcome of my NIE interview. I've picked myself up and moving forward right now.

now i'm kinda caught in between decisions.

1) should i find a new job?
2) should i approach school to get a post as a full time relief teacher and continue pursuing a teaching career?

i've been to an interview early this week. It's a position as TMC edu centre's Assistant Student Service Executive. To put it in a simplier term, it'll be a job whereby i work as TMC's admininstrative officer.
I was called today by their HR to attend 2nd interview on monday. Most likely i'll be offered the job. It's a 5.5 day work. I guess paid ard $1.6k but not sure yet. Most importantly, i must commit at least 1 YEAR. This is the thing that i'm most concern abt. Should i go ahead with this job. I have to commit 1 year. How abt my teaching job.. Should i give it up and walk a different path?
I can't change my mind as and when i like cos i've to commit to this TMC job.

Sigh~! I'm in a dilemma..

alright, enough of this..

something NEW!
I've change my hair style. Haha.. It's super short right now.. It's BOB! After so many years, it's my ever first time cutting so short. But not VERY VERY short la. Haha. Wanna change abit of my image cos hong's complaining. Opps! Haha.. Well, it's actually me also la. I'm kinda bored looking at the same old me everyday.

Different hair, different feeling. I feel slightly happier thou.

Yeah yeah.. my online shopping item are finally arriving. I've waited till my neck grew long.. Haha..

Looking forward to the items..

=)

2007-06-02T16:02:00.000+08:00

=(

finally after1 month
i've received a reply from MOE. As usual, they thanked me for attending the interview for the teaching position. They appreaciate my interest for the application..
AND!!
As usual, after considering me with other shortlisted applicants, they regret to inform me that they're unable to offer me a teaching appointment..

Ya..

Thanks..